Imp-'s

Banana & Manggis

2011-10-22T12:54:00.004+02:00

Bangsa dan bahasa; 2 elemen terbesar dalam hidup bermasyarakat. Topik yang seringkali dibualkan dan sering menjadi permasalahan 'orang' kita.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iTyvCfv8zNQ&feature=player_embedded

Aku suka idea yang dibawanya. Cina yang tidak bertutur dalam bahasa cina = banana. Kalau melayu? Manggis? Lol. Tapi aku tidak kisah tentang itu kerana yang patut diberi penekanan lebih ialah golongan yang menetap di Malaysia tetapi tidak mampu bertutur dalam 'bahasa'. Ada pepatah berbunyi seperti berikut:-

When you are in rome, do as romans do

Kau kata kau mahukan perpaduan, namun sistem vernikular tidak dihapuskan.
Kau kata kau mahukan persefahaman namun SJK tidak diroboh, ironis bukan? Kalau diteruskan begini eloklah kau tanam slogan 1Malaysia dan teruskan perjuangan lain.

P/s: Kalau kau kat siam belajarlah bahasa siam. Kalau kau kat brazil belajarlah bahasa brazil. Kalau kau kat mesir, tolonglah belajar bahasa arab sekali. Duduk lama2 tak tahu apa rugi jugak kan? :)

Sesungguhnya aku berpuasa T_T

2011-08-24T19:07:00.007+02:00

#Heh *AMARAN: Entry ini mengandungi agak banyak perkataan yang sedikit kesat*

Pagi tadi, aku telah pergi belajar memandu. Sekarang silibus pelajaranku sudah sampai fasa meluncur di jalan raya. Gementar tu memanglah gementar, baru 5th timer camtulah katakan. Tapi bukan itu yang aku ingin fokuskan. Sepanjang tempoh satu jam aku memandu di sebelah guru memandu aku, telinga aku jadi panas. Rasa nak menumbuk muka dia pon ada. Aku tak nafikan yang aku banyak buat salah, tapi makian dan cacian yang aku terima; tidak aku rasakan setimpal. Antara sisipan tengkingan yang aku dapat ingat adalah:-

"APA YANG KAU BELAJAR NI IMRAN. MAKIN BELAJAR MAKIN BODOH!"

Mungkin dia terlalu marah, mungkin aku juga terlalu bodoh. Tapi tidak mengapa, mungkin betul apa yang dituturkannya. Aku rasa kepala aku sudah sedikit bengap; efek bermain game terlampau banyak. *Dapat rasakan perubahan mendadak sejak dari zaman sekolah menengah; otakku jarang sekali digunakan untuk perkara yang bermanfaat. *

Ok, apa yang aku hendak tekankan ialah kesabaran. Walau bagaimana marahpun anda terhadap sesuata perkara/seseorang, anda haruslah bersabar, lagi-lagi di bulan ramadhan. Kata-kata itu doa, dan doa itu bagaikan anak panah yang sampai terus kepadaNYA. Berhati-hati dengan tutur kata, jangan sampai ia memakan tuannya.

*Pengajaran qisah 1)Sabar 2)Jaga tutur kata 3)Banyakkan membaca agar otak berfungsi lebih. :D

Takuk yang sama.

2011-07-09T01:39:00.007+02:00

AKu lihat, ramai yang menyokong perhimpunan Bersih2.0, tidak kurang juga bilangan mereka yang membantah. Setiap satu perlakuan mestilah ada justifikasinya bukan? Bagi aku, eloklah perhimpunan ini diadakan walaupun ramai yang berkata, "Buat apa berarak?? Macam orang tidak bertamadun!!"

Aku kurang gemar bercakap tentang hal politik kerna jauh sekali akalku dapat mencerna apa itu politik yang sebenarnya. Tapi ingin aku tegaskan bahawa aku rimas, aku kasihan dan aku prihatin terhadap masa depan rakyat negara ini.

Sudah lama kita terperap di bawah tempurung yang sama. Minda kita telah ditinta, diwarnai dengan penipuan dan dusta! Tidak mahukah kamu merasai angin perubahan? Angin yang bakal melentur corak kehidupan yang diimpikan?

Kita terlalu pasif sehingga anggota bagai diikat, lidah dan lelangit seperti dilekat. Tindak-tanduk bagai sudah dapat dibaca, ditaakul dan ditangani oleh 'mereka'. Semuanya sudah di bawah kawalan. Heh. Aku tidak rela untuk terus berada di takuk yang sama. Aku tidak rela. Anda..

Mahukah anda?

Matahari masih bersinar

P/s: Jangan salahkan mereka yang pergi ke perhimpunan, tetapi salahkanlah mereka yang memudaratkan keadaan. Perubahan bakal dinikmati bersama, oleh itu lakarkanlah senyuman. =)

Obsesi

2011-06-22T23:23:00.010+02:00

Hati ini memanglah diciptakan satu,

Supaya umat insan tidak terkeliru.
Bayangkan jika dikurnia hati dua,
Nescaya semua akan rambang mata.

Manusia mudah obses dengan satu-satu perkara yang dirasakannya menarik. Aku pelik, apa yang sangat menarik dengan orang yang bermata sepet, berhidung plastik? Oh aku bukan rasis, tapi ini hakikat! Apakah yang sungguh menarik dengan permainan-permainan elektronik, hatta sanggup bersengkang mata menatap monitor!? Kaum yang lemah!

Di mana ada obsession, di situ ada addiction.

Tidak salah untuk obses terhadap sesuatu perkara, tapi haruslah dilorek sempadannya. Jangan disebabkan nafsu kita alpa. Selamat menjalani musim peperiksaan dan selamat bercuti bagi yang sudah selesai! :]

Aku nak minum ni tiap-tiap malam. -.-

Abah

2011-05-30T21:35:00.006+02:00

I had a bad habit back when I was a kid; CyberCafe was my second home. My father, he was worried and thought of the best way to cure me. He bought a CD game; FIFA2001. In lieu of using force, he said "Bancik, mainlah game bola yang abah beli tu so tak perlu pergi cc" and he smiled at the minute.

When I was a kid, I loved watching WWF a.k.a World Wrestling Federation. My father, he never did forget to rent new WWF series; Backlash, SummerSlam, RoyalRumble; each time he went to the renting store. He did all of that just to feed my desire.

Dad, you are AMAZING! Happy birthday. =). xoxo

He hid the pain he endures and seals it with a smile.

P/s: And thx for this handsome face. :p

"No matter how big you are, you're still my baby."

2011-05-07T15:14:00.002+02:00

Dear ummi,

Happy mothers day. Love you.

Pagi raya 1 syawal ,9:52am, 10hb sept 2010.

Aku ini kolot

2011-05-03T07:11:00.008+02:00

Baru-baru ini kecoh pasal ada gerakan membantah program Medic's Got Talent. Apa itu Medic's Got Talent? Ia adalah satu talent showcase di mana para pelajar dapat menunjukkan bakat mereka dalam apa-apa bidang; nyanyian, choral speaking, standupcomedy, videoediting etc2.

Mereka mendakwa bahawa program ini mencemarkan biah solehah yang telah lama dipupuk oleh golongan azhari.

Apa itu biah solehah? Biah dalam kata lainnya adalah atmosfera atau atmosphere atau vibe atauuuu ape-ape lagi. Solehah pula bererti baik. Maka, apabila digabungkan 2 perkataan, ia menjadi..?

Memang betul. Dahulunya, bumi mesir hanya dijejak oleh mereka yang ingin mendalami ilmu Islam, tapi semenjak kebelakangan ini, orang-orang seperti aku turut membanjiri ardul anbiya'. 1 matlamat yang sama, 2 cabang yang berbeza, tetapi mana silapnya? Siapa yang mencemarkan biah solehah itu?

Kita hidup terlalu selesa hinggakan aman yang dikecapi bala bencana pula dirasakan jauh sekali. Apabila sahabat itu melakukan kesalahan, tidak kita teguri sampai sudah menjadi sebati. Salah yang macam mana? Kau cerminlah diri sendiri. Tapi aku hendak beri hint; semuanya revolve around social thingy.

P/s: Kadang-kadang aku rasa kolot sebab aku tidak berperilaku seperti mereka.

Baju raye kitorg x pernah sama. :p

DNA

2011-04-29T13:12:00.005+02:00

Aku tidak tahu ada apa dengan genetik. Kerana genetik, martabat seseorang diangkat tinggi; dijulang ke langit bagai tiada limitasi. Kerana DeoxyriboNucleicAcid, mereka mendapat layanan khas.

Adakah coding genetic mereke begitu istimewa?

Aku ini idealist. Aku mampu berfikir secara rasional. Aku ini bukan tunggul. Aku berfikir secara diagonal. Apa yang masyarakat terima, tidak semuanya wajar di mataku.

Hanya kerana darah yang mengalir dalam tubuh mereka, mereka disanjungi? Hanya kerana darah yang mengalir dalam jasad mereka, privilege boleh dieksploitasi?

Aku tidak cemburu, jauh sekali mengeluh. Tetapi patutkah tampuk pemerintahan diwarisi hanya kerana darah?Barangkali ummat sudah lupa akan zaman emas; zaman di mana kafir laknat turut akur pada pemerintahan Khulafa' Islam.

P/s: My life is at stake.

I miss my old headset. AlienwareTactX =(

LE10

2011-04-25T12:34:00.010+02:00

Tangannya diangkat lemah. Dia melemparkan secebis senyuman. Dari jauh aku perhatikan kelibat hamba ALLAH ini. Umurnya mungkin sebaya dengan aku malangnya kakinya tempang sebelah, rambutnya kusut-masai dan penampilannya agak menjelikkan. Tetapi ada sesuatu yang istimewa. Ya, aku rasakan insan yang berada di depan mataku ini menghasilkan suatu daya tarikan yang tidak dapat diterangkan dengan ilmu fizik duniawi.

"Hari ini hari aku, manalah tahu nanti datang masa malangku" fikirku sejenak.
Aku hulurkan sekeping not LE10. Wajahnya terus bercahaya lantas berkata "BarakALLAhu fiik..". Langkah diatur semula, banggunan kediaman hanya lebih kurang 100meter sahaja jaraknya. Kelihatan di seberang jalan sahabat serumahku. Dia melambaikan tangan sambil melaungkan namaku.

Pandanganku menjadi gelap. Pitam sudahkah aku? Di manakah sahabatku? Kemudian aku terjaga dari lena. Aku teliti sekelilingku. Ummi berada di sisi katil. Matanya berkaca, mukanya merah menyala menahan sebak di dada.

"Bancik.." bisik ummiku perlahan.

"Kenape ummi? Nape bancik ade kat sini?" jawabku lemah.

"Bancik accident. Kaki bancik remuk kene langgar kerete.." lafaz ibuku seraya berjurai air matanya.

Aku terkesima. Benarkah? Aku merenggangkan tangan untuk mendapatkan kakiku. Kaki kiriku; aku gagal merasai kewujudannya! Pandanganku kembali gelap. Datang kepadaku seorang hamba ALLAH. Kakinya tempang. Aku seperti kenal akan pemuda ini.

"Enta meen?" soalku kepadanya.

Dia tersenyum. Lalu bersuara "Tidakkah engkau kenal akan aku? Adakah banyak perbezaannya antara aku dan engkau?"

Tanpa sempat aku menuturkan sepatah kata dia menyambung lagi, "Sebenarnya, aku adalah engkau yang sekarang. Oleh kerana engkau pernah membantuku, mahukah engkau menerima bantuanku pula?"

"Bagaimana boleh kau bantu?" balasku.

Lenalah kamu, nescaya semuanya akan kembali seperti sediakala.

Aku tersedar dari tidur lantas aku capai kedua belah kakiku. AlhamduLILLAH, keduanya masih ada. Bagaimanakah jikalau aku tidak punya kaki? Dapatkah aku menjalani rutin harian seperti biasa? Bagaimanakah itu, bagaimakah ini, dan banyak lagi soalan berstrukturkan perkataan 'bagaimana' bermain-main di benakku. Namun, semuanya hanyalah mimpi dalam mimpi.

P/s: Segala macam yang kita punya, hanyalah pinjaman. Apa salahnya bersedekah kerana duit itu juga bukan milik kita. ALLAH beri pinjam supaya kita dapat berkongsi dengan insan yang lain.

Letak gambar aku dengan abah sebab tak mention dia dalam story. hoho

Darah & daging?

2011-04-20T16:49:00.006+02:00

Dahulu ketika aku baru mendaftar di Kolej Matrikulasi Negeri Sembilan, aku membuat statistik ringkas*yakni tidak menggunakan kertas* tentang latar belakang akademik pelajar di sana. Aku perhatikan, ramai anak bangsa cina yg telah skor cemerlang SPM tetapi 'terkandas' di sana. Sehingga sekarang aku kerap berkongsi statistik ini bersama rakan-rakan namun setelah mendengar jawapan mereka, aku rasakan seperti ditelan mati emak, diluah mati bapa. Kenapa?

"Alah. Orang cina siap ada komuniti deorg lagi. Bagi scholarship kat anak2 cina"

"Kita ada MARA je yang nak saport komuniti melayu"

Pada jihah manakah harus aku berpihak? Aku lihat ramai orang melayu hidup dalam kesusahan. Jika hendak dinisbahkan kepada komuniti orang cina, nescaya kaum melayu mendahului segalanya dari aspek kekurangan. Tapi haruskah aku salahkan orang melayu?Kononnya MEREKA sendiri yang harus MENGUBAH nasib mereka? Atau haruskah aku menyalahkan 'pejuang-pejuang melayu' negara?

AH! Sekarang bukannya masa untuk menunding jari. Haruslah aku bangkit suatu hari nanti seraya menguraikan segala kesulitan yang kian meracuni pemikiran anak-anak muda negara.

P/s: ALLAH tidak mengendahkan daging atau darah*keturunan*, tetapi apa yang diterima ALLAH ialah taqwa seseorang.

25th Jan 11'

Yusuf

2011-04-09T15:42:00.005+02:00

Hours passed. Minutes obeyed. Seconds wasted.

HE'd be happy if you can think of HIM even for a sec.

Rakkez m3ya, 2ol el7amdolillah m3 b3d, meshy? Al7amdolillah.

Btw, just going to share with you a story of a real LEGEND. It's about a legend, wait-foooooor-iiiiiiit, ary! man named Yusuf. Seriously, can you resist when a perfectly beautiful, sane, pretty woman seduced you?

Heres a beautiful recitation by one of my favorite qari, Misyari Rasyid El-affasy.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y8oKdLG92i0&feature=related

Hahahahaha. Lawak btol time ni. :D

Kata ganti nama

2011-03-31T17:51:00.005+02:00

Kenapa berdialog dengan tuhan pakai 'Aku/Kau'?

"Semoga cak bahagia" doa hati kecil ku. - Perlis

Zxcvbnm

2011-03-29T12:19:00.005+02:00

Terlajak perahu boleh diundur, terlajak kata...? Kalau nak menuturkan/type sesuatu eloklah berfikir sejenak terlebih dahulu, janganlah sudah terantuk baru tengadah. Haih.

Ada apa dengan perenggan di atas? Aku baru sahaja terjumpa laman blogserius ni. Punyalah jakun sampai aku baca berjam-jam(threads-threads terdahulu) tanpa henti. Sampai sahaja di satu thread ni, aku tertarik untuk membaca komen-komen yang ditinggalkan.

Obefiend, kau memang bodoh. Itu sahaja komen dariku. Janganlah jadi cam mamat seorang ini. Patutlah abang aku pernah cakap yang mamat ni liberal tahap ape ntah. Baru aku tahu sampai tahap ni liberal dia. Semoga dia, saya dan anda semua mendapat hidayah. Amin.

http://blogserius.blogspot.com/2010/12/serius-saya-gay-saya-ok.html

Vans off the wall. Oh aku suke Vans. =="

Ayam, Lembu & Kambing.

2011-03-27T10:01:00.004+02:00

Pemilihan perkataan memang merumitkan. Aku tidak faham kenapa masyarakat naik berang apabila dilontarkan perkataan yang juga merupakan kata nama seperti babi dan lain-lain. Tetapi tidak pula mereka marah apabila disamakan seperti kucing walhal kedua-dua babi dan kucing tidak punya akal. Haha. Ya aku pun kadang-kadang pelik kenapa aku marah apabila disapa dengan perkataan seperti itu. Barangkali ini semua disebabkan mentaliti masyarakat yang kurang berkembang?

Bagaimana nak kembangkan mentaliti? Haaa. Itu akan terjawab bila anda dewasa dan cukup matang. Sekian.

Kesimpulan : Janganlah pakai perkataan-perkataan yang kurang sopan. Bukankah Melayu bangsa yang santun? Ahh pedulikan melayu. Islam lebih elok.

Tetibe teringat kat parents aku. oh. From egypt with love. <3

7amdalah

2011-03-23T23:56:00.012+02:00

Hari ini aku telah pergi ke hospital. Ramai yang terdampar mengerang kesakitan.

Hari ini aku baru sedar, segala macam yang telah dipinjamkan kepadaku untuk tempoh 20 tahun yang lepas, semuanya masih sempurna.

Oh, beratnya lisan untuk menutur kalimat 7amdalah.

Oh, inilah lumrah kehidupan.

Manusia itu alpa, bukan?

Alangkah eloknya jika aku dapat menjangka bila Izrael akan menjemputku;

agar semuanya dapat disusun rapi. Eh, kalau begitu untuk apakah akal ini diberi pinjam?

My first Apple product*cheapest one available :D*

Aku & si Buta

2011-02-28T18:19:00.006+02:00

Apa bezanya aku dan si buta?

Aku punya dua biji mata, begitu juga dengan mereka.
Oh, tetapi iris ku sedikit berlainan, adakah itu sahaja?

Aku mampu melangkah bebas tetapi mereka berbeza.
Tongkat dan ihsan orang menemani perjalanan, senantiasa.

Terlupa pula, A'tid di kiriku sudah jemu mengambil catitan,
Manakala Raqib mereka senyum melaksanakan tugasan.

Aku hanyut di persinggahan,
Namun mereka menaiki bahtera yang sarat dengan muatan.

Mungkinkah inilah 2 biji mata yang mengundang segala kejahatan?

Si buta dengan tongkatnya-

Ada apa dengan Melayu?

2010-11-08T10:14:00.008+02:00

Aku hampa. Aku malu. Bukan kerana aku dilahirkan Melayu, tetapi kerana mentaliti yang kian me'layu'.

Aku terbaca satu laman. Aku suka karangannya, cumalah yang ku benci perkataan kasar ditinta. Tapi, dia juga manusia; ada salah dan ada silapnya.

http://aididmuaddib.blogspot.com/2010/11/gelang-ac-mizal-penipuan-testimonial.html

Aku singgahi group tersebut di Fb. Reaksi ku normal apabila melihat defendan mula membela. Rakyat mana yang tidak berang apabila raja dicuit walau dengan force yang minimal bukan? Hujah demi hujah ku baca. . .

Aku tersenyum ; ada sentimen Melayu dibangkitkan. Ahhhh. Melayu.

Dahulunya nama melayu itu Agung. Kini bagai sudah kurang nilainya. Dahulunya pemimpin melayu itu disanjung. Kini hilang sudah maruah mereka.

Dari raja higgalah ke rakyat jelata tidak ada bezanya. Cuma segelintir kecil yang pandai membawa diri, memegang teguh obor agama. Ya, baru ku sedar.

Indahnya melayu itu kerana tutur katanya, lembut persis kelopak bunga raya. Indahnya melayu itu kerana sopan adabnya, membuatkan banyak mata dan hati terpesona.

Tapi semuanya kian pudar, me'layu' kerana kurang dibaja.

Oh agama, mungkinkah engkau persoalannya?

Oh raya. Bila lagi kau akan menjelma.. >_<

T T Oh exam, dikau membuatku terseksa. -.-"

A mug of milk

2010-11-05T16:34:00.005+02:00

Ada beberape jenis manusia di rangkaian Fb yang aku kurang gemar melihat:-

1)Manusie yang ade sahabat beribu-ribu atas dasar suke² add.

2)Yang ade banyak album² gambar yang dipenuhi gambar² self portrait.

3)Arh cukuplah dengan ini. Aku juga bukan sempurna. :\

Kadang² aku pernah terfikir bagaimana rasanya menjadi femes? Sedapkah? Tak sedap apenye kalau 24/7 didampingi gadis² di alam cyber/realiti. Argh, nikmat duniawi! Siapa boleh resist!!

Namun aku sedar, setelah setiap sesuatu aku peroleh dari nikmat duniawi, kekosongan akan menyusul. Bak kata orang putih, 'there's a void in my heart...'. Ya kosong! Aneh. Benda yang aku hajatkan telah aku miliki. Kepuasan sudah tertera di wajah, namun masih ada kekurangan dirasakan.

Tuhanku lebih arif dengan segala urusan duniawi. Semoga sujud² yang dilakukan mampu menjawab persoalan² itu.

. : :Aku sedang menaiki bot yang hampir karam di lautan. = =": : .

*Ouh kerane terlalu risau diet aku tidak sempurna aku telah menyebat buah plum pada harga 10Genih untuk setiap setengah kilo. So in total dapat laa 6 bijik. Semunya sebab teringat Umi ku yang seringkali membelikan buah sepanjang tempoh percutianku di Malaysia summer lalu.

"Umi taw bancik suka buah. Tu yang umi beli buah jambu batu*dan buah lain*"xoxo.

Sinaran pewarisan!

2010-11-01T17:06:00.008+02:00

Baru sahaja selesai menghabiskan tontonan drama korea yang bertajuk 'Shining Inheritance'. Jumlah episodnya boleh tahan, 28 episod semuanya. Cuma satu sahaja yang kurang best, cerite ni sama macam Sonata Musim Salju, tak habis² heroine dier menangis. :\. Antara nilai dan pengajaran yang telah saya pelajari ialah :-

1)Darah lebih tebal dari air.

2)Duit adalah sesuatu yang menakutkan.

3)Jangan banyak bercinta nanti jadi loser.

Agak kekok untuk saya menaip kembali. Maklumlah, baru sahaja memulakan hidup baru. T T.

Antara perkara yang agak mengganggu fikiran saya sekarang:-

"Perlukah kita bagitaw sumer org pasal status relationship kita? Adakah PDA*public display of affection* itu perlu?"

-Nak bercinta tu bercintalah. Tak perlu kecoh sedunie. Kalo nak kecoh pasal wedding invitation tu lain cite.

Tears of blood = lelaki sejati. T T

:D

2010-10-14T11:51:00.001+02:00

"I have a life, It's just that people dont know much about it" - Imran

I've locked up myself for the entire 7 months, doing the same routine perpetually. It's sad when you cannot treasure the most valuable asset; TIME. I remember watching the movie 'Wall Street: where money never sleeps', to be honest, it was a motivational movie despite the cliche'-ness and predictable sotryline. I was taught on how valuable time is throughout the 116 minutes of screening. *Giggling*. Let's cut to the chase shall we?

A rich man without time barely looks like a rotten corpse; no hopes, bleak future. Whats the use of digging golds when you dont have the time to spend it eventually? Why do people want to turn back time so badly?*This reminds me much of the song sang by aQua - If only i could turn back time*. Urgh, so lame laa this topic kan? haha. Well, at least I'm using my time in a much more better way *than to be spent on games etc*. H*ll yeah, this blog is officially reopened. No more lullabies!

And ouh, I love you Umi and Abah. xoxo.

Last but not least a reminder to all - [103:1-3]

Equilibrium

2010-03-20T13:39:00.003+02:00

What will happen if something is not in equilibrium? Given an example of equilibrium in the form of 'current life' and 'afterlife' : A man prays 5 times per-day, but he goes clubbing every night. You can try to balance life like the previous equation but eventually it's the same as making 'teh limau'*notice that teh = tea+milk*.

Balance a.k.a equilibrium.

It is not the equilibrium must we think of, it is HOW the equilibrium can be achieved. Crap =_= giving excuses such as 'balance dunie akhirat' whenever sins are perpetrated. "Ko x yah balance dunie akhirat, ko utamekan akhirat otometik balance sumer mender", a notion shared by a mate. Well there's a truth in it. Shove everything in the 'good deed' pan and it will be balanced automatically at the end of your daily life.

Conclusion: The one and only thing that you need to comprehend thoroughly in this life is your religion.

Don't we all?

2010-03-09T09:03:00.004+02:00

I keep drafting post lately. I really wanted to post things, but trivial stuff doesn't belong here. It's a waste of time for the visitors to read "My ears got pinched badly today" or "I am so sad now, my 5 years old friend mike-the-squirrel died yesterday". Er, dont feel bad if you doing/do/did that, its ur page, its up to you how the painting is done as the saying goes "The beauty is in the eye of the beholder".

So I'm going to to reincarnate this blog after months of idling*literally meant* with this post.

Can any of us gives a specific time on when do we really need help? Can we predict the future? No we cannot. Do we even know when will nature calls us? No, we cannot tell that even after years residing in this body. We are weak.

I would like to summarized the msg I'm trying to convey in the following short-story:

I was parked in front of the mall wiping off my car. I had just come from the car wash and was waiting for my wife to get out of work. Coming my way from across the parking lot was what society would consider a bum. From the looks of him, he had no car, no home, no clean clothes, and no money. There are times when you feel generous but there are other times that you just don't want to be bothered. This was one of those "don't want to be bothered times." "I hope he doesn't ask me for any money," I thought. He didn't. He came and sat on the curb in front of the bus stop but he didn't look like he could have enough money to even ride the bus. After a few minutes he spoke. "That's a very pretty car," he said. He was ragged but he had an air of dignity around him. His scraggly blond beard keep more than his face warm. I said, "thanks," and continued wiping off my car.

He sat there quietly as I worked. The expected plea for money never came. As the silence between us widened something inside said, "ask him if he needs any help." I was sure that he would say "yes" but I held true to the inner voice. "Do you need any help?" I asked. He answered in three simple but profound words that I shall never forget. We often look for wisdom in great men and women. We expect it from those of higher learning and accomplishments.

I expected nothing but an outstretched grimy hand. He spoke the three words that shook me. "Don't we all?" he said.

I was feeling high and mighty, successful and important, above a bum in the street, until those three words hit me like a twelve gauge shotgun. Don't we all? I needed help. Maybe not for bus fare or a place to sleep, but I needed help. I reached in my wallet and gave him not only enough for bus fare, but enough to get a warm meal and shelter for the day. Those three little words still ring true. No matter how much you have, no matter how much you have accomplished, you need help too. No matter how little you have, no matter how loaded you are with problems, even without money or a place to sleep, you can give help.

Even if it's just a compliment, you can give that. You never know when you may see someone that appears to have it all. They are waiting on you to give them what they don't have. A different perspective on life, a glimpse at something beautiful, a respite from daily chaos, that only you through a torn world can see. Maybe the man was just a homeless stranger wandering the streets. Maybe he was more than that.

Maybe he was sent by a power that is great and wise, to minister to a soul too comfortable in themselves.

Maybe God looked down, called an Angel, dressed him like a bum, then said, "go minister to that man cleaning the car, that man needs help." Don't we all?

Our life is not perfect, and never will be perfect. Keep asking for help. No matter how deity of a person you appear to be, you are not god thus its a sign of imperfection. An imperfect being needs help more than anything.

Hate o not?

2010-01-15T05:19:00.004+02:00

http://www.facebook.com/pages/I-Hate-Fasha-Sandha-/391516980726?ref=search&sid=1066867066.1378030071..1

Should I hate or not?

Gag : http://www.facebook.com/pages/I-Hate-Fasha-Sandha-/391516980726?v=feed&story_fbid=263993690497

Read the cmmnts if you got time. =). People are funny. Brainless one are much much more funnier.

"I got lag host. Pls fix it"

2009-12-16T05:17:00.005+02:00

I may deceive naked eyes, but not the clothed one. Might seems normal, but I have acute syndrome. Severe one.

When someone hosting a game, he must tunnel all the players to prevent disturbances while game is running. These disturbances may come in the form of lag/spikes or delay or both. When you have lag, you can simply complain, "I got lag host. TUNNEL ME FGS!" . But the problem is, I have brain lag. @_@.

I'm too lazy to respond to anything. I'm too lazy to contact anyone. I'm too lazy to go out of this lovely CITY of Mansoura. I'm too lazy to do anything except studying and gaming. Pity me brother*whos living in Cairo*. The last time I saw him ; when I departed from uk. The next time we're going to meet up ; prolly next summer holiday. Omg. It's not like we're in diff country!!

Sorry everyone, call me kere sumbang. Idc. but thats me. Now I'm working my gluteus muscles off to earn good grade. Being inferior to everyone right now ; hope this little efforts will avenge me. I WILL PWN ALL OF YOU!. ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLL. pffffffffft. I wrote retardedly. @_@. Forgive my imbecility. And like meepo's pooof, I will b e g o n e. BB. GL HF for final exam.

Sry , malas nak buat tag. :D

A confession that must be done.

2009-12-06T06:01:00.005+02:00

Untuk mengurangkan lagi beban yang ditanggung maka saya terpaksa tampil dengan pengakuan yang jujur kerana esok midsem.

This sem is my worst sem. As the Egyptians say "Bgad! WALLAHY!". Ouch. Why?

7 weeks have passed. To be concluded, there are 7 cases that had been discussed. the 1st 3 weeks went clockwork. I attended all lectures, practical sesssions and early experience classes. It worsened from day to day afterward. The latter? well. My presences in lectures can be counted. 4th,5th,6th and 7th, well i cant really remember what the topics are?? To be summarized :

-I only attend 2/7 EE sessions
-played truant during PBL sessions ; 3/14 times.
-Never did attend Student's Presentation xcept for my presentation.
-the final 2 weeks? I cant remember attending any lecture.

I remembered what my brother said, "Game online nih bahaye. Ade jer kawan angah balek mesia balek sebab wc3". I can feel the pain now. Ouh btw I played 290+ rounds of dota. Impressive!!? The duration of each round averaging ; 40-50 minutes. Thats only the in-game duration. not to be counted the waiting time, lagging time and so forth. Screw me. I annihilated my life as a good student.

I'm currently memorizing answers from past year q. er, not currently but am waitng for the answer which I havent receive yet.

Sorry mi. T T. It's painful to write ; knowing the fact that ure reading it, truthfully. But atonement must be in order to let all these burdens disappear into thin air. Love you. Pray for me please. =).

@_@

2009-12-01T01:54:00.006+02:00

Greetings,

Back in year 2000. I remembered that my Abah bought me a game. Afootball game ; fifa 2001. The chief notion that dawdled in his mind at that time: keep me away from the Cybercafe. He never did use brute force upon me. Thx dad, I realize it now. But it's just hard when you are addicted to something*I was addicted to Counter Strike V1.1 atm*

Addiction can kill.

Well I read a link posted by my bro regarding a warga emas whos addicted to tikam nombor ekor. She just can't resist it and it is very bad, chronic addiction. @_@. Temptation is temptation. We're not angel. Sad Isnt it? >.<
sorry mi lambat post. <3.>

Sakai giler time g sambutan rayer. rambut x sikat. Baju kedut. hahahahhaha. Kesah ape. Hidup skali jer. tard.

You watch yours, I watch mine.

2009-11-05T12:04:00.007+02:00

Statistic shows that a person speaks up to millions of word per day. Ok. Thats a lie, I dont know the actual numbers but who cares?? Speak more plox. That wasn't my point. What I was trying to say is, do you really think before you talk about something? The significances, consequences etc²? Me? I dont. Well, I sucked that part.

Fyi, tongue is sharper than a blade, says a politician. Indeed. Tho another politician said that action speaks louder than word, sometimes the words speak louder.Hurm, lets cut to the chase. What I'm trying to say is, THINK before you speak. Hahaha. I suffered from the curse already. Let me tell you a story of mine. Once, I saw a lad. This lad, he loves to wear tight shirts. And so, I bad-mouthed him ; "What's wrong with this dude? He thinks he's sexy??". Ouh. shoot. Now, I even bought few shirts of that kind*smothering thingy*, and WORE them few times. Ok. My bad. I have a bad mouth. rofl.

Lesson learned : Do not bad-mouth people. Even if you wanted to, try not to be like them.

And here's a sip from my private life:

I haven't introduced a new member of my family yet; my nephew. He's gorgeous. He has the look of my brother, Irfan. Fat layers under his chin make him looks similar to my brother when he was small. Er. I forgot the correct spelling of his name. Due to this, I'll just upload a picture of him instead of doing shameful act. Ahh. Can't wait to see you. I SOO WANNA MAKE HIM MY APPRENTICE. Seriously. Don't blame me bro, you dragged me into this path and I'll repay it to your son. :DD. Can't imagine him represents Malaysia in WCG@World Cyber Games.

"Uncle, how did you get GODLIKE in like 15minutes??".

See. He has the look of a gamer. Future GosuGamer.

Postscript: The word Gosu stands for professional*Info.*.

Lets break the tradition shall we?

2009-10-28T15:49:00.006+02:00

I don't know what've gotten into me because lately, I kept thinking of marriage. Hurm. From my observation people do spend a lot on a wedding and this has became a tradition since then. Since when? Since people are afraid to be called 'cheap'. I laughed when my bro said he wanted to arrange his wedding in the holy month of Ramadhan ; people can 'tapaw' their lauk ofc. Nothing wrong ait?? Ooo yeah, there's always a catch; the word 'cheap' is fearful! I do fear that word ; it's like having a ghostly doppelganger who follows you to your grave. :S

Everybody's cheap. - Russel Peters

Regardless of his racist jokes, I still like him ; he speaks the truths. I concur with his notion that everyone's cheap. Why shield up your petty self by wielding a 'parade' when you can't even afford it? Why borrow money from other when you can cut the cost? Now this is called a pure wastage. This day you spent 20k just to impress people. Tomorrow you'll be daunted by money. I do afraid for bringing up this topic ; how will my marriage be? Will it be grand? Or as mediocre as ever? Will there only be 'bunga telur' and 'sirap' ice?

Moderate. Be moderate. That's what the prophet Muhammad taught us. Just for this once, be a King who dislikes luxuries. Be teh odd one. The odd one who doesn't even care bout what people think.

But now, I'm facing my biggest problem, I cant seem to be able to contain my lust. Er, towards DotA meh, yellow thinkers! I'm trying to be moderate. Moderate. *keep on chanting the word 'moderate'*. Dozed off. Btw, I'm apolozing for not being able to reply comments. T T. You'll understand when you have a vexing internet connection. :D.

Just some random updates

2009-10-14T01:42:00.006+02:00

Smile can be deceitful. I’m not being prejudiced, but I can’t let my guard down. Moreover, I’m defenseless against phony expression of politeness. The one thing that can bleach a man’s masquerade is money. MONEY. And so, I had to cheat while haggling. I had to lie. I had to.. I felt bad about it even though it was my last arsenal. Nevertheless, greed is good*’Blizzard’

quoted this!*

“Enta minen?*where are you from?*”

“Min indonezi…*from Indonesia*”.

The going got easy after I uttered the two words. =__=.

Aaaa. Btw, taxi drivers are greedier as new faces appear profusely. *sigh*. I’m afraid that the cost of living in Mansoura will peak to its highest possibility.

I had to cut the cadar my beloved umi made, just to fit the oversized mattress. =(.

I feel like keeping a trash here. I don’t know what to be fitted in this blog apart from “I woke up with a great feeling.”, “I think she likes me!<3”,> and bla3x.. Pfft.. Nvm, just click the x button up above. I keep posting in this blog just for the sake of my mom. =). She knows how to open this page. Unfortunately she don’t know how to comment on entries. Hehe. So it’s like a one way

interaction. =).

Pray to god that I can find a better thing to be discussed here. Aiyark..

Oh. Sekarang saya sedang berjinak dengan tablet baru. ~___~. Disebabkan kekhuatiran atas tidak tahu mahu buat apa di masa lapang, maka saya telah memikirkan ide untuk menjadi kartunis andainya tiada hospital atau klinik yang mahu ‘hire’ saya di masa muka kelak.

Tablet. Signature aku sungguh hodoh. Tolong ajar camner nak coin a better signature. =(

Quarter of a year.

2009-09-27T13:58:00.022+02:00

Greetings.

Lama pula blog ini tidak ku sentuh. Ahhhh. Nak tulis dalam BM, tapi pakai baku ku rasa janggal pula. Nak tulis dalam pasar, macam biadap. =.=. Nvm. Regardless of what language I'm writing in, my love for you 'Bahasa Melayu' masih tidak terhingga. =).

Im going to board the plane in less than 24 hours. T T. My 3 months dah abes. But this summer is just fantastic. Tahun nih x rayer kat mesia lagi, namun dah rase bese. Ouh, few days back I went to Paris. Malas dah nak type, maka hanya mahu paparkan gambar sahaja. Thx bristol-lites for your good hospitality provided. Au revoir. Gambaremashou.

*nape aku bace macam perempuan punye writing?? Aiseh...*

Gustave's
Killing two bird with a stone. X yah g NY. agaga

Invalides

Arc de Triomphe

Disneyland

Sacred Heart

Kubur Chopin(one of the greatest pianist)

Milo sumtin namer bende alah nih.+___+

I can be monalisa too. =(

Menghayati art.

I swear, I didnt watch the show. I see no evil!

Notre dame? Notre damn? forgot.

Mosquee de Paris. Oldest mosque in Paris.

The hostel.

Charles de Gaulle Airport.

Bristol Airport.

Taking a break from a break

2009-09-05T05:00:00.002+02:00

The chill wind of summer embraced me and so I quickened my pace. Those drunkards were really good for nothing, walking effortlessly, stumbling on their feet right before my eyes. It wasn't really a good scenery. But I already prepared the phrase "People here are good, affable. I kinda like it here.." as a pretext whenever someone asks me bout it. I abhor their habit, drinking habit in particular. When they drunk, they yell noisily. I saw countless drama too where the girls were seen crying in front of their Bfs*masalah rumah tangge kowt*. Yesterday, there were two sluts quarreling and got carried away*dragged into an action-packed scene, involved slapping and pushing*; with one of em' ended up falling on the ground, the other one left nonchalantly. Ahaha. Grotesque, yet amusing. I love it.

Romadhon's great. Islamic Society here is doing a great job, everything's like clockwork. Free food for ifthor, I love it. Few days back, I met a doctor*during ifthor*. He has been working in bristol for almost two years, a graduate of a medicine school in Newcastle. His salary is nice, 3k pounds before tax. Sadly, he has to pay 800 pounds monthly to feigning needy jobless-single-mothers, drunkards and yeah ; to provide a better life for the people here, says the government.

"So far, how many percent of your gained knowledge*during internship* have you applied?" asked me.

"Almots like 1-5%" answered he.

That is unbelieveable. So, whats with the struggles? =.= . He gave me a piece of advice, "Do your best in gaining knowledge". Sounds cliche', but I'll heed his words. Komapta.

I have to admit, Egypt's medicine schools are not as great as Europe's. This fact keeps bugging me. Will I be a good doctor?. Will I....? I guess I have to wait another 5 more years. =). Regardless of the 100% chance on passing examinations*xDDD*, I'll try my best to be a good, diligent, hardworking and *etc2* student. Ima go over the hills. So, slamat bersahur, berpose, berbuke, berayer and fly. Dan kepade pelajar2 mansoura, slamat pulang ke mesir.

"Tuntutlah ilmu dari buaian hingga ke liang lahad" - Imam As-Syafie'

Tumpang sekaki daaaa

Farewell Farm

2009-08-25T05:02:00.009+02:00

Sudah beberape minggu blog ini dibiarkan tanpe update. Papepown, kepade kawan2 yang melawat blog ini, sile tinggalkan link anda sebab ritu terdelete ar sumer link.

10th of Aug 09- Left Bristol. Discovering Staffordshire.

12th of Aug 09- Started working in Dearnsdale farm.

22nd of Aug 09- Jobless.

24th of Aug 09- Back in Bristol.

11 days working and so my body's aching but it was worthwhile. I worked as a strawberry picker. Cool? Jalan itik 6 jam stret, for the sake of earning £15. My biggest earning : Experiences = priceless. Banyak jer mender nak citer, tapi cam x bes pule dengan hanya menggunekan tinte. Maka biarlah gambor menerangkan sedikit sebanyak. Some pics:-

Se-tray stroberi yg telah penuh. Upah untuk kutip satu tray nih ialah £1.2-. £1.5*purata*.
Cheap isn't it? Alas, beggar cant be chooser.

See how big the tray is? Tiap kali nak start tray baru abes merundum semangatku untuk memenuhkan tray itu... T T

Gimik memetik stroberi. Sebenarnye gaye mengutip tidaklah begitu bergaye seperti yg tertera pade gambar. *Jalan itik/cangkung*

Ladang Raspberry

Menenung buah yg sudah ranum

Trip ke Stafford Castle
Birm

Hijab? An Obligation upon women?

2009-08-07T03:47:00.008+03:00

This entry might arouse disgruntlement among you people hence read the title first and opt to read or not to read. =).

"Nape luar pakai tudung, dalam Fb/Fs x?" A rhetorical q that me brother and I*in reality not only us, most of people* keep repeating. I tried to put myself in their shoes but the topsy-turvy complexity dazzled me. Why? why? why... Why eh? Hurm..

I was once a member of a religious bureau, and during the glorious epoch I had these particular friends. I was unable to do a thing cept cajoling them, buttering them up; so that they will always wear hijab. But it was futile*not exactly futile, cant find another suitable word*. Eventually my efforts wear thin, I no longer care for those people.

We overlooked this matter. It seems that this is a small problem despite the scarce truth; An elephant masquerading as an ant. From my POV, this might be the consequences:

Women throw away hijab.
Others start to follow.
They no longer feel guilty.
Hair, neck, arms, legs, What next?
Now, can you foresee it?

I still couldnt figure out the answer. Feel free to share your opinions. =). Here's a good entry regarding this pandemic disease.

Kredit untuk mirul.

A fool and his money

2009-08-03T11:10:00.007+03:00

"Aku dah beli dah SLR dowh", his friend's voice crackles through his ears. Then he starts thinking, "Maybe I should get one too..". Poor boy. He need not an SLR. He had passion neither in photography nor camera, it's a bit confusing why he needs that.

He sees friends using psp. "I dun really need a psp. But wait, i can put lecture slides and read during leisure hours". Poor him. Another excuse made to satisfy his lust. He rarely done that ; reading slides during leisure.

He scores a goal during a futsal match. "Omg, I have talent! I should hone this talent by buying a pair of astroturf shoes! Should it be adidas? Nike?". Poor chap. A cheap one would be okay, why need to pay more for something he do not need.

"I already have a good laser mice. Now I need to step forward by pairing it with a brand new keyboard! I need good gaming gears after all". Why? A cheap keyboard is not enough? He's not that good in gaming yet he boasted like he was the representative for his country in WCG.

"Wow. Those clothes look really cool. By hook or by crook, I want to lay my hands on those garments!!". Ahhh. Another epic idiocy. He's a poor kid isn't he?

Lust is something that can consume us. We need to discern whether that thing is a NEED or a WANT before we spend our cash and dime on it. Money is the enemy. Hence, throw your money away, smile, and cry out loud "I need not money to live. All I need is food". Be wise, think trice. An idiom to be shared:-

A fool and his money are soon parted

This idiom means that people who aren't careful with their money spend it quickly. 'A fool and his money are easily parted' is an alternative form of the idiom.

P/s: This lad is thinking, "I want to buy a graphic tablet for my passion lies here*drawing@arts*". Omg. He never insaf. Someone pls bash him for me.

Rinoa & Yuna

2009-07-20T10:42:00.006+03:00

I wish I was mute
Incapability of rhyming profane words would ease my mind.

If I were blind
I would be tahnkful; sins are barely magnetized.

Deaf?
It should have prevailed over hearing curses and expletives.

If my arms and legs were amputated
I wouldnt find my self walking on this path.

Alas, I questioned myself..
"Why GOD? Why did YOU gave me utterly amazing niám but you
left me wandering aimlessly?"

There must be reasons. It's my duty to unearth those obsolete cogitations..
I must...

FFVIII ftw!!!! Ahhh. rindunye zaman aku bermain final fantasy. =(. Rinoa...Rinoaaaa! I really want to cry. FFX..yuna..................................

Conman Stories

2009-07-09T09:02:00.013+03:00

Whenever stories about Muhammad s.a.w+ his companions were told, I would listen to it attentively. Stories that give me motivations, lessons and everything that influence me to do good deeds+cringe away from wrong doings. One of the story that I love the most is a story about a blind old woman who have been fed by Muhammad s.a.w. You knew that story right*I'm assuming so*. I had read and listened to a myriad of stories concerning our prophet, Muhammad s.a.w with his companions and followers and I accepted it wholly notwithstanding the verifications of the stories by Fuqaha'.

Have you ever heard of the story about Sayyidina Ummar Al-khattab before he got reverted? 'Myth' has it that he killed his daughter out of humiliation. Fyi, during Ages of Jahiliyah, to bear a daughter is some sort of humiliation. So, when you first hear that story, do you believe it? I did. It sounded so real, thus I never judge the authenticity of it. One day, I read an article which was related to that story. To my dismay, the story seems doubtful afterwards*after reading the article*. I can't say much about it*already forgot*, but the author is a pious and knowledgeable person.

But that's not the only story that lived through ages, plenty are yet to be identified as 'fabricated' one. So, whenever you encounter stories which contain the element of absurdity such as 'Seorang alim yg sembahyang suboh menggunakan wudhu' maghrib', try to scrutinize it thoroughly, there must be a catch in your findings. I know that this kind of story*which contains exaggeration on how pious the person is etc2* appealed to us more than any other types of story. Extraordinary. Yes, that's why we love to tell and share such stories with others. Ergo, be cautios and heed to everything that you hear. Study it first before you even think of spreading it.

I love the way he answers. =)
*Credits to my brother for the vid and the ideas*

Remorse

2009-07-03T12:54:00.009+03:00

"Aku x kesah pown" he replied with dreary tone, concealing his grief. Not that it matters really, but he disdains whenever someone's mocking him for the decision he made. He deciphered the word 'sacrifice'. It was worth it. At least he's having fun, wasting time playing games. =). Will he ever get bored with it? Poor chap. =(

Lesson learned : Everything comes at a price. Sacrifice is a must.

Talking about regret, I do have a regret. The only thing that I'm regretting the most is game. I tried to stop, but it is irresistible. It lives in my heart. Like a plaque, it accommodates all parasitic organisms. Bit by bit, my life's consumed by it. Perhaps one day, I can put this misery to an end. One day..Hopefully..

Since everyone posting new entries which most of it contain the word 'mesia' or 'malaysia', I would like to post mine too, but the not-so-mesia version laa. haha

Wth org tue nih. Dier mmg suker interfere org bergambor..cait.

Bukingem palace

Old Trafford. xD
MC ftw? Naaahh..

Rented car. I'm the tenure btw.

Sahabat penulis khusyu' menunaikan solat. Bagaimana dengan penulis? Dier uzor daa

Luck

2009-06-22T20:43:00.005+03:00

"Good Luck"

Well-wishers words, ours too. Does luck really exist? Normal preconceptions weighing on the existence, but if we comprehend the concept of Qada' & Qadr, such locution is not commonplace. Yeah. Was a bit shocked knowing my result; aimed for the lowest yet achieved better. So, it was my luck eh?

''You call it luck, I call it hard work."- Imp

If you fail to achieve what you were aiming it could either be; lack of effort or HE wants it that way. Better say "Dah takdir..nak wat camner.." than "Nasib x baek..". Any differences can be spotted??er.. HAHAHA. Hurm. But I do lessened the usage of "GL". As an exchange, I use "Slamat berjaye". Does it matter anyway? Ouh crap, im gibbering again.

Moral of the story; you get what you deserved. Stop whining. xD

But I do believe in luck. In games, luck is prominent. =). Ouh, should I explain about this? xD. Hurm. HF people.

The little things in life dt make me happy.=)

2009-06-22T00:11:00.014+03:00

-Aku skang dah jadi pakcik. =)

-Gasping fresh air. G jejalan recently.

-Dapat jayid. AlhamduLILLAH. x yah ar ulang pekse. xD

Bristol Bridge

Recently g kat Art exhibition. Ade hasil tangan 'Banksy'. Die nih well known untuk art dier yang agak ntah pape, yet menarik. HAhaha.

Otw ke cardiff. Penat giler tunggu tren

2009-06-19T05:18:00.005+03:00

I'm shivering. But where's my jacket?

It's cold.T T. I brought nth but few shirts.

I suppose that I have to buy some later on.^^

P/s: I'll post some pics soon. bb

Update tangkas

2009-06-14T17:09:00.004+03:00

Hurm. Cuti musim paneh sudah pown bermule. Sume orang pown da start packing barang. Bohsan giler kowt cuti 3 bulan. Bile la sem 3 nak start. T T. Aku nak abes medic cepat. Nak beli audi. *Drooling*. Hari tuh g amek gambar sebagai memento kat kedai gambar. Kene 40 genih!
30 GENIH untuk soft copy!!!! Dier save kat cd! CD! 30 genih! Dah la dier print gambar hodoh kat atas cd tuh.. Ntah pe cer arr deorg nih. Lepas tuh, kalo amek gambar kat kedai arab, orang tue pown nampak mude. Pergh. Bab² edit gambar mmg deorg no 1. So teliti lah gambar dibawah. Sumernyer yg telah di edit. xD

Bb

2009-06-08T19:48:00.006+03:00

I'm not in the blogging mode; just recovered from low grade pyrexia AKA demam. Sounds cool en? That's why I wanted to become a doctor. Thanx to those who helped me while I was enduring hardship. *Grins*.

"One good turn deserves another" - Ntah saper

May ALLAH repay your kindness, Amiiin.

It's time to close the books. Tidy up your looks. Burn all the papers. Save all the chatter. Cheers. Holiday awaits us. Have a safe travel and have fun. =). This might be too early, but English paper? Dun worry. You can enter the hall agreeably even if you read nothing. I'm not underestimating, but yeah, I edi am.

A bad feeling I have. During my way back home, I saw ominous clouds. It gave a sign, "You will pass excellently" it said. *Sarcasm mode off-ed*

I do not care about what happened or what's going to. What past is past. Even if you lose, do not lose the lessons. Performed terribly. Can't blame anyone if I fail this time. Maybe it's because of :-

1) I bought nothing but pens and notebooks. The last academic book I bought... er Biology form 4 & 5. And it was 2 years ago. Other than that, NIL, NAUGHT. =(

2) ALLAH wanted it this way. So, stop whining. I deserve it. Hahahahah.

Games are smothering me. I cannnn nooooot breath. *Cough³*. Please save me.. *Cough²*. I will be gone. *Poooooooooft*. *gone*. - dead silence. Dead.

Mengintai Jendela

2009-06-01T06:20:00.008+03:00

Hurm. Pagi 1 jun. Sungguh tataw nak wat mender. Padehal paper lg 5 jam. hahahaha. Papepown kawan² aku baru karang sebuah novel cinta. Papepown ini adelah sisipan dari novel tersebut:-

Oh³. Karya pertame aku. Klik untuk imej yg lobih godang.

Cinta kerna keterpaksaan bukanlah cinta yang indah. Namun setiap hari yg dititi, beliau berjaya menyuburkan cinta terhadapnya yang dahulunye tidak lebih dari besar sebuah zarah. Hari demi hari beliau semakin gembira.. Hinggelah..

Kekasih lame beliau datang menyapa, menggamit perasaan buat kian kalinya. Beliau keliru, seolah-olah dunia tidak lagi berputar pada paksi. Cinta yang dahulu diqosadkan terhadap med*name kekasih baru beliau* kini berpaling arah.

Restu ibu bapa sudah tidak dikesahkan apabila kepuasan yang didambakan sudah membukit. Beliau mencari ikhtiar, siang dan malam diluangkan bersama Rylai tidak pernah dirasakan mencukupi. Cinta kian berputik semula. Namun jauh kat dasar hati beliau, kekesalan mula menyelubungi, menelan setiap kebahagian yang baru sahaja ingin dikecapi.

"Antara dua.." begitulah persoalan yang sentiasa berlegar-legar di benak beliau. Mana satukah yang perlu dipilih? Mana satukah yang boleh menjanjikan kebahagiaan? Beliau 'mengintai jendela' hati lalu..

P/s: Hohoho. sory ar kawan². Semenjak dok mesir BM aku maken hebat ar. T T

....

2009-05-25T20:47:00.005+03:00

1) Copy award di atas untuk di letakkan di blog anda.
2) Nyatakan 5 fakta menarik tentang si pemberi award ini.

1. Pernah satu praktikum ngan aku(ini sungguh menarik).
2. Tidak pernah penat menjerit-jerit "Jaejoong"
3. Kadang-kadang sedikit emo.
4. Anak manja.
5. misteri!?

3)Setiap blogger mestilah menyatakan 10 fakta atau hobi sendiri.
1. Suke men game.
2. Jahat.
3. Malas.
4. Pengotor.
5. Kurang sifat.
6. x malu.
7. Banyak cakap.
8. Kedekut.
9. x gentle.
10. Penipu. 9 fakta diatas rekaan semate-mate.

Perancangan Perkahwinan.

1. How old are you?
19.

2. Are you single?
Who cares?

3. At what age do you think you’ll get married?
x konfem lagi. Bile aku dah taw, aku roger, okeh?

4. Do you think you’ll be marrying the person you are with now?
Aku ngan saper skang?hosmet? Aku stret, maaf.

5. If not, who do you want to marry?
Hamba sahaya.

6. Who will be your bridesmaid or your bestman?
Ujang a.k.a kambing besor yang aku pernah bele.

7. Do you want a garden/ beach or traditional wedding?
Lek2 sudey.

8. Where do you plan to go for honeymoon?
Sanwei Legun.

9. How many guest do you think you’ll invite?
7 orang jer kowt.

10. Will that include your axes?
axes? Kapak? Retarded.

11. How many layers of cake do you want?
1, Lapisan keimanan..Amiiiin.

12. When do you want to get married? Morning or evening?
Malam.

13. Name the song/tune you would like to play at your wedding?
Peluru untuk velentain aku - tangisan tidak jatuh.

14. Do you prefer fine dining or just normal spoon/fork/ knife?
AH! aku bg tapaw jer, buat time bulan pose lgpown. Jimat duet.

15. Champagne of red wine?
Sila jage sensitip keagamaan.

16. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
....

17. Money or household items?
Hanya keikhlasan yang ku pinta.

18. How many kids would you like to have?
12-14

19. Will you record your honeymoon in DVD and CD?
Minta maaf. Saya allergic kepade lensa.

20. I want to know their wedding plan.Soklan ditukar kepada:-
20. Anda mahu kahwin berape?
Tgk ar dulu. slow2. pas satu, pasang lg 1. Kalo mampu tambah 2 tros pastu.

Nitrous booost! Pekse³!

2009-05-21T22:25:00.008+03:00

Humans change. To worse or better, either way is possible. But when does these become commonplace*relating to human changes*? *Proudly raising my hand and scream out loud*

"Time pekse!!"

yerp. The chief reason why people change abruptly. Nice it is. But what will happen right after the last paper is handed over to the invigilator? Everything returns to normal as if no such self-awareness ever came across their mind.

"a sad fact of life but mankind approved this.." - Malique

Well, i witnessed this right before my eyes; UPSR, PMR, SPM bla3x. I'm not trying to express my rudeness by denigrating these people; it's good to watch em changing. But the fact that they're worsen each day after examination signaled it's farewell saddens me. I prefer seeing people change for better everyday tho oni a lil. At least they're better than teh sort mentioned above.

"Istiqomah khairummin alfi karomah(Istiqomah lebih baik dari seribu kebaikan/kemuliaan)"

Applicate this in your daily life. For everything good you're doing, do patch it with istiqomah + do not take things for granted. Does HE have to answer our prayers just because we change drastically from bad to good? Does HE not know the outcomes of it?

p/s: Kepade sumer orang, slamat mengulangkaji dan menempuhi peperiksaan. =)

Too young aren't we?

2009-05-17T07:56:00.006+03:00

I've been searching for the complement of the previous post. Yeah. Love is naught without marriage. What's there to be proved if you have no guts in taking responsibilities ait? Talk is cheap. Everyone can utters that 3 syllables, 8 letters, but no one dare to bear the consequences. So, stop scattering this phrase, save it for your future wife. =.=

Marriage. People look at it with diff perspectives. Some think that life after marriage is terrible; u can't hang out with your friends nymore, your spouse nagging you etc². But some take it optimistically; a path which will brings the afterglows of marriage. I read many entries regarding marriage, especially marriage in young ages. It's an interesting topic to be discussed, really.

What is wrong getting married while we're young? There isn't a problem actually. Er, there are, the first barrier is parent's approval. Bla3x. Second, financially, bla3x, and so forth. I dislike writing prolixly. Hence, I would like to ask suggestions+opinions on "Love before/after marriage, which is more promising?"

Some said love after marriage is old school, too corny. "We must get to know each other 1st to require the happiness of stair's house". Well, excuses are still excuses. "Hendak seribu daya, x hendak seribu dalih". Agagagaga.What say you? Feel free to drop comments.

p/s : Ouch my my, why am I dwelling on this matter too much?*Starts confabulating with the other me*. Xm's approaching, pulling me into the medulla of black hole, worry not, my mirana edi learnt leap lvl 4. Jump my deity! Jump high! The villains shant prevail! *Tsk-ing*

Preposterous Xperiment

2009-05-10T18:02:00.008+03:00

Over days my curiosity grew. A hectic life I'm experiencing, but I'm curious of how some of my friends have time for love*excluding love for family&friends*. Imho, they're suffering a great loss, time. Izit my worst time management or their meticulous way on spending time that invokes this curiosity of mine? What is so special about this 'pure love'?

I never been into one, honestly. Ruminating upon this matter, I'm thankful to myself. I don't have to waste money texting that special one, I don't have to waste my time pondering on hus love is greater. Deliberately, liberty is mine. Time & money. the two prominent things that these people neglected. I edi talked about this almost a year ago,*my early days of blogging*. To be summarized, I found that this is reckless; elaboration is not necessary.

My suggestion to these people, "Why don't you go a step further? A legitimate bond is good. =)" Recently, I heard from my friends that there are 7 legitimately-bonded-to-be couples here in Mansoura. Thank goodness they found the ultimate solution and I'm happy for em, may they live happily ever after.

Problem statement: Until when this 'pure love' will last?

Hypothesis : HE knows better.

Fixed variable : Type of love

Manipulative variable : How the love is conveyed.

Responding variable : The outcome of this relationship.*Will they get married eventually??*

Apparatus : Love, henset, laptop, internet, brain, mouth, hands, heart.

Materials : MONEY, TIME, love.

Procedure :
1) Love, love and love.
2) Repeat step 1 endlessly.

Conclusion : Not yet to be decided.

Discussion : Wait few more years.

Thank you to my particular friends+acquaintances, you are the subject of this experiment. =)

Hiatus

2009-05-02T19:57:00.001+03:00

A heroine in DoTA quoted:

"The end draws near!" - Mirana Nightshade, PotM

She's my favorite. I love her very much. I cant take my eyes of her. Charming, versatile, and gorgeous; she's everything a man wants. But she made me hate her. I hate her now and then.

*Untuk apekah paragraph di atas?*

Da nak xm dah. Phew. Tadik last session PBL, yukattane! Everything's over, for now. Dakara? Jom study.

Minna san, Gambattene!(Grup PBL)

"Merenungi luar jendela, mengagumi kebesaran yang maha esa
Ku menilai kehidupan dari sudut berbeza, tak memadai hanya
kecapi rasa selesa, mahukan harta yang mampu beli satu semesta"

p/s : Ima go inactive(unless I found interesting topics to be shared).

Just a reminder

2009-04-29T02:57:00.005+03:00

Again, i saw the kid and his father. *sigh*. I cant bear the feelings; guilt & pity adjourn my career as a gamer.=(. Few days back I received a news, my friend got sick. I cant say much bout his illness but it does sound serious and his doctor said that it is even fatal. *Semoge ALLAH menyembuhkannya*. Ima visit him today, with ALLAH's willing.

Life's a test. HE sent 'malak' to us; A pair write our good & bad deeds, another one acts as an intermediary in giving 'rizq' to us, n so forth. A fact to be known by everyone: Gabriel visits us many² times a day. Lucky us if he visits while we are sitting on our 'saggadah', pity us if the time is not right; "Aku hairan melihat manusia masih leka dan mampu bergelak ketawa sedangkan kematian mendekatinya". A friend of mine taught me, "If u wan to pray, dun forget to pray that you'll never forget ALLAH, death and 'yaumul qiyamah'. If u remember HIM, HE'll never forget you"*Im well prepared, edi have braces,xD*. Actually, dunno what to write meh. At least this could be a reminder to us, meself. Next monday shall be the ultimate day> study leave 1 month(or less)> exam. To all M³ students: "Gambattene!".

1924

2009-04-23T06:13:00.003+02:00

So far x pernah lg promote ape² lagu. Oleh hal yang demikian, anda layanlah lagu di bawah oleh Soldier of ALLAH - 1924. Nice song, meaningful lyrics. =)

*Gambar hiasan ke-due*

Death

2009-04-20T12:33:00.011+02:00

Death is something that people want to hear less; they’re acting as if immortality within their reach. We rarely smile/laugh when a person making jokes bout it, eg:-

I² : “Maner laa taw pasnih mati terhempas dalam gaung…”

Awestruck boy : “Oiiii! Jage mulot tuh. **.”

I². Did he do something wrong? Orthodoxly yes, because he have the so-called ‘mulut celupar’. But he didn’t deserve a scorn for the verbal reminder he threw instead, the other boy should be thanking him. Humans are forgetful. Even the slightest taste of sweetness can makes them forget everything. They love to hear pleasant news but not the tearful one. They abhor the ordeals cast upon them but they’re not that grateful for the ‘nia’m’ given. This is a sickening disease but worry not, there is a cure, death. =)

What I meant was not the death itself but more like being alert bout it. We can see people who are in death row or those who are infected by incurable chronic diseases; they knew that soon they’ll be drifted apart, entering the hereafter. How lucky of them to know such thing. Lucky? The moment they acknowledge “the end is nigh”, tears of repentance flow profusely, bringing them nearer to ALLAH. We should envy these people. =(

“Maka alangkah eloknya kalau semasa (roh seseorang dari kamu yang hampir mati) sampai ke kerongkongnya. Sedang kamu pada masa itu (berada di sekelilingnya) menyaksikan keadaannya. Dan Kami lebih dekat kepadanya daripada kamu, tetapi kamu tidak melihat” Al-Waqiiah [56:83-85]

Ergo, joke more bout death or say this to your friends or relatives, “g mati laa” and ask them to thank you afterward. Agagaggagaga.

"Likulli da' dawaa', illal maut", bagi setiap penyakit ubat kecuali maut.

8 letters

2009-04-18T19:39:00.008+02:00

Life's a bed of roses, not. A secured life. No such thing existed. Handsome cash flows into your pocket, successful in every aspect of life; too early to conclude it as a perfect life ait?

"They say that Life here on earth is like a wheel.
Sometimes you're up, sometimes you're down.
When you're up, that's good and well.
But when you're down, you must be prepared.
Let us not forget that our life is like a wheel.
Coz there are no certainties here on earth.
So if you are rich now, you have to take care
You might fall down and hurt yourself.
But if you are poor, sick, or in too much pain
Remember that there is a GOD whom you can call on.
Life is like a wheel, don't you forget that.
Someday you might find yourself on top again."

"Sekiranya kamu bersyukur, nescaya akan Aku tambahkan nikmat Ku kepada kamu. Akan tetapi jika kamu kufur akan nikmat Ku, maka ketahuilah bahawa azab Ku amat pedih."

الحمد لله

8 letters arranged nicely+pronounceable. Chant it, decipher it, and you shall be rewarded.

Happy Birthday

2009-04-16T15:30:00.010+02:00

Happy birthday ke-48! Semoge ALLAH merahmati umi. Love you!! Ader beberape santapan mate, namun umi jangan risau, sumer rendah kalori. hehe. Miss you.

P/s: Phew, such a girlish post. hahah. Since ramai org wat, aku pown wat arr satu. Dan tolong jgn gelakkan gambor aku. AHHAHAHAH. ROFL!!!Aiseh, background spoiler ae. T T. Credits to Hariz Sharif, Afif Rahimi, Fazley Zainal, Bunyamin AbduLLAH, Izwan Ibrahim dan Malek Mumtaz.

Story of a girl

2009-04-13T17:12:00.006+02:00

An acquaintance of mine once spoken, “If you want to pay less when riding a taxi, ‘grab’ his heart”. I ponder on what he said, it’s a downright truth. Psychologically, if we were the taxi driver we would feel the same when a tourist who doesn’t even have the same blood running through his vein speaks the same language. So, ima write about an event which took place in a taxi.

Once upon a time, I rode a taxi. With the intention of getting a ‘discount’ I decided to open myself up to him. The taxi driver, he was young, no beard, yes moustache. I greeted him casually, trying to create a warm vibe and so did he while responding towards my polite behavior. Then I asked him profuse questions; almost everything about Egypt but the only question that I can remember was “Ent Hafiz(Do u memorized Quran)?”. “AlhamdoLILLAH” he spat while smiling at minute. “Kuwaiiyis(NICE)! Anna fi baladi, shuwaiiyaah bas ya’ni fi a’dadi naas yehfazoon Quran(Kat negare aku sket jer org hafal quran)” I said. He smirked, and that confused me and my readily levitated mind. He threw me a gaze out of the corner of his right eye as he began to speak. “Fi masr, kitiir naas yehfazoon el-quron. Walakiin fi musykillah. Buus, duul laisu muhsiniin, ya’ni lam yutbiuu qoran(Kat mesir ramai je org hafal quran, tapi x sume ikut)” he answered. I smiled. That’s an indisputable fact+makes sense. The urge to follow something doesn’t come solely from understanding. In fact, it requires 'Hidayah'; the one thing that most people lack of.

His words remind me of ALLAH’s prophet, Muhammad S.A.W. What was the impression of the ‘kuffar’ when Muhammad S.A.W preached them for the first time? “Are you preaching us so that we leave the deen that we hold on to from the very day we were born? The deen of our ancestors?”. If I were there, I would be thinking the same. It’s difficult to accept something that came out of nowhere and without basis. Sadly, only few stood up and conveyed their vows to follow him and advocate the Deen of ALLAH*which includes Abu Bakar As-siddiq; He received this title due to this remarkable event, may ALLAH bless him*. IMHO, 'hidayah' is the most precious thing because it can be clearly seen that our ‘saudara baru’ treasure Islam more than we do. So, keep on asking for 'hidayah' from HIM and never stop doing so. HE’ll surely answer your prayers.

I would like to wrap things up with a ‘qita’h’ of a verse in the Quran:-

“….bandingan orang-orang (Yahudi) yang ditanggungjawab dan ditugaskan (mengetahui dan melaksanakan hukum) Kitab Taurat, kemudian mereka tidak menyempurnakan tanggungjawab dan tugas itu, samalah seperti keldai yang memikul bendela Kitab-kitab besar (sedang ia tidak mengetahui kandungannya)….”- Al-Jumuah; [62:5].

Mengetahui sedikit tetapi diikuti dengan praktikal adalah lebih baik dari mengetahui banyak perkara namun tidak dimanfaatkan perkara-perkara tersebut ya'ni dibiarkan begitu sahaja.

*Sekadar gambar hiasan*

Biological clock

2009-04-08T02:22:00.006+02:00

I have ruined it. Day is night, night is nigh when I realized that day’s almost over. A catastrophic routine I have. Can’t recall when does this started. But I’m assuming that xm is the ‘culprit’. See, when it draws near, shuddering thoughts incapacitate my frail thinking’s manner. And so, I summon the examination kit. Tadaaa!!

Caffeine+susu are NICE!! With the help from ALLAH+kopi susu, I can outlast the night. Well, nothing goes out accordingly. =). Blogging, browsing, games, chatting etc2; I can’t avert it. But still, the satisfactions gained in understanding something*which is very little, most of the time* call forth the afterglows. Little is better than nothing ait? Truth to be told, aftermaths are inevitable. I’ll be drifted to sleep during lectures, staring at slides bleary-eyed, ‘nodding’ endlessly and so forth. But this is a great start for a ‘newly-born’ medical student like me*grits teeth*. Yeah! Gambaremashou! Mumtaz-in-the-making! *Gazing at clock, 4:17 a.m* Woot. Shuboh edi. Only 20 minutes were allocated for revisions. Poor me.*Lamenting* T T. [103: 1-3].

Wine

2009-04-05T22:15:00.005+02:00

“Hurm, I think rest you can read on the handout given, the simplified and explicable form”.

What makes ManchesterProgram students special is, they have this kind of learning session namely, the ‘PBL’ or Problem Based Learning. It’s a fun and interesting session, only for those who can take it as the upper hand. Held twice a week, whereby students will be given objectives*that must be completed, so that it can be presented during the 2nd session* during the 1st session.

So far, I have attended PBL sessions for 15weeks. For each week, I ended the latter with the phrase I mentioned earlier. What is wrong? To be honest, I completed my findings, sought information in both books and web pages thoroughly. But I did plagiarize sometimes, sometimes. The worst part is, I spoiled the presentations. Sux. My brain was like, “Wtheck am I presenting? How come these terms are so unfamiliar? Where did I heard this word before?”. And ofc, the outcomes were terrible. I pity my PBL mates. I’ll do better next time keyh? xD

The main problem, I didn’t even know why am I here. Doing medicine? Man, I longed to be a pilot ever since I was kid. Looks cool eyh? Surrounded by cute and sexy cabin attendants, walking on a deviant path which leads to self destruction*this will oni happens to those who succumbs to their temptations, LOL*. Being a doctor is cool too. Wearing coat that no ordinary men can wear, nurses*hahahah*, holding syringe*Drooling*, prescribing drugs, tules ‘cakar ayam’, bla3x. But my mom, she’s hoping that one of her children will emerges as a good, fine and religious doctor. My older siblings, they edi took different paths, I mean far far away from this field. So, I’d uphold the burden on my shoulders. May ALLAH bless this route.

I’m whining, again and again. *Sigh*. Since I deactivated both my FB and FS a/c, I have ample time to write gibberish. Hahahaha. Sien. But I miss the absurd quizzes. T T.

Friends.

2009-04-04T05:00:00.002+02:00

I have many friends. I love my friends. They're good people. I wish that I could always be with them. Heck?

I'm thinking of deleting both FB and FS a/c. There is no particular reason. This action that I'm about to take, I might regret it. But somehow, this will soothe some disgruntlements, intermittently ofc. Atm, still using Friendster to communicate with my oldies. A shoutout to em "Sorry guys, you can view my blog as a replacement". Reckless it seems. I cant fathom the consequences that lie ahead nor can I understand the pros and cons of it. Perhaps, I'll recreate it in future. Hopefully one day, the moment I cringe away from books, the minute I stand on stage honoring a memorable day, the second I miss my friends, I'll reincarnate it. In the meatime, I'll keep my brain occupied with other beneficial stuffs. And with this, I solemnly vow, I'll do my best, and to forget you not. Jaa. Gambaremashou!

Mediocre

2009-04-02T17:39:00.007+02:00

I just got my 1stSEM’s result two days ago. Instead of showing an upturn or a downturn lips curvature, I showed a straight face. IT HAD BEEN A MONTH since the other ManchesterProgram’s students acknowledged their results. I got “jayyid jiddan”. No big deal really because it’s a mediocre but still, I’m thankful to ALLAH. If everyone is at an average level, I would say this world is wholly balanced thus its boring to dwell in it. Luckily, there are always smarter people who passed with flying colors(mumtaz). Automatically, these people are classified as the ‘above average’ people. *looking into the mirror*. Pathetic I feel. This reminds me of an event which occurred when I was in ‘tingkatan 3’.

I enrolled in a school, located on the outskirts. A remote boarding school. There, I befriended many people without helps from www.friendster.com or www.facebook.com or myspace. Not long after that, I had this one friend.What made him so special to me was the way he thinks. One day, a monthly test was held, and I asked him to predict the mark. Guess what? “Huishh, kalo lulus pown AlhamduLILLAH” said he, nonchalantly. I was at an utmost amazement. Wutta? If you were in his shoes, would you be thinking the same? Pitiful isn't?

Everyone wants to be special, yearns flattery from others. But did their efforts deserve that? “I want to get highest mark” says a person, yet he/she go back home and do nothing to achieve that. In the end, he/she laments his/her incompetence in managing time and scorches his/her body with jealousy. I think I should make changes too. Staying at ‘takuk lama’ really is annoying. I don’t know what took hold of me, but I can feel that I’m changing tremendously. Yar²! Aku mahu mumtaz!!Sungguh bohsan mendapat result yg bese. T T. Sekian, trimas. *Pergi membuat keje2 PBl*.

Kita adalah apa yang kita usahakan.

2009-03-30T00:56:00.005+02:00

Ku mencapai bagasi lalu ku sematkan di belakangku. Selepas menyisir rambut, ku melangkah ke luar rumah sambil menghela nafas panjang diikuti bacaan "bismiLLAHi tawakkaltu al'aLLAH". Perjalanan ke 'Gamaah' sememangnya memberiku masa untuk menyelak helaian soalan-soalan peperiksaan kepunyaan senior² ku. Setibanya aku di pintu kuliah 'Tib', aku kembali menyimpan warkah² itu. "Ahhhh. Cukuplah setakat ini.." dengusku seorang. Berbekalkan 'femur'ku yang kental, aku berjaya sampai ke tingkat 4 dan terus mengatur langkahku ke dewan peperiksaan. Bunyi derapan kaki pelajar² yang bergegas menambah kerisauanku, "Eh, dah start ke xm?" bisikku dalam hati. Syukur ya aammpuuun. Jauh panggang dari arang, rupanya masih banyak kerusi² yang belum dipenuhi. *disingkatkan*

Peperiksaan bermula. Aku baca soalan pertama, "AHAHHA. Sayur jer nih". Minit demi minit, aku berjaya menjawab 25 soalan dari 50, *sekali lalu*. Namun hati ini dibuai perasaan gembira, "Yeah, dah lepas jangkaanku". Bagaimanakah akan ku jawab yang baki? Aku tidak teragak-agak untuk memilih jawapan secara rambang, atau dalam erti kata kontemporarinya, 'hentam'. Terbias di wajahku keriangan dan senyuman lantas terukir, meratap kertas peperiksaan. "Ok. setel" bisik hatiku seraya meletakkan pen dan kertas. Aku puas dengan pencapaianku. Konklusinya, kita dapat apa yang kita usahakan bak pepatah arab "man jadda wajada wa man zaroa' hashoda".

But, I do feel guilty for not being at my best. I just can't*too much of an xcuse eyh?*.*Sighing deeply*. Two days ago, I saw a merchant, pulling his 'in-games-like' caravan. I think that he was selling 'kentang@ubi bakar'. But thats not the main point. Walking with him were two kids. Yerp, kids. Waaa. I pitied them. Me at their age? I was sucking bottles of milk, walking around agreeably, thinking not of 'how to earn a living'. But them? They moved me, my inspiration. Honestly writing, my greatest motivations are my family and the needy people. Whenever I'm 'alpa', these two muster up my strength for the ordeals, helping all the way through. It's not difficult to be grateful, you just have to compare yourself to the inferiors. So? All the best.

Retiree. xD

2009-03-26T22:18:00.003+02:00

Well-known for his obsession towards gaming, he was throne as the king of game. It’s a fact that no men can deny. He even beat his brothers in this arena, except in naruto which he recently commented “I haven’t had time to grasp the skills. SPM was really bothersome. Now that it’s over, I can get back on track and grab what ought to be mine”. Needless to say, FarizM too is one of his fallen rival who refused to continue his career in Warcraft 3:TFT and quoting this as his farewell speech, "Nah, now committed to Company of Heroes”. Forlorn, isn’t? With no friend, no family or even rival to compete with, he said this during an interview “I think I would put a halt in my gaming career. I know that my fans out there will be dismayed by this statement, but that’s that. Nothing can be changed now. People are full of themselves. What the world had become!? Why..why.. To all my fans out there, Please, PLEASE do not stop! The new era is approaching. With lotsa new games such as Diablo 3 and Starcraft 2, you won’t be disappointed. I would like to end my career officially with 6 letters of abbreviation, GG, GL and HF”.

With no remarkable achievement, he left the world which once he idolized. But is it too good to be true? What will happen to this world? The fate of the other gamers? Will they follow his steps? We’ll see. =)

The real statement : “Sebenarnye, mmg dah lame bohsan men game nih. Bayangkan konsol² game di rumah pown dah berhabuk x bersentuh.*note that Mesia kurang habuk berbanding mesir*. Tambahan pula tiada apa yang hendak dimainkan dan keseronokannya sudah lenyap ditelan zaman, meninggalkan penyesalan terhadap zaman kejahilan yang pernah ku lalui. Pahit untuk diluahkan, namun berbekalkan sepapan kekunci , semonitor beso, serangkai broadband, seekor tetikus dan sebiji cip processor, aku berjaya melancarkan post ini. Doakanlah yg terbaik untukku sepanjang 5 tahun yang mendatang. Mungkin aku akan mencari hobi baru seperti membace quran, membanyakkan tidor dan berbagai lagi. Sekian, terima kasih kerna membace.”

Libido?

2009-03-24T09:23:00.008+02:00

Hi,

First of all, sorry for the rude title. But at least it appealed you to click on it right? Credits to Farahin, Hosni and my brother, I was 'terikut-ikut' and cant stop ROFL-ing on the titles. What a good and pleasant morning I have. It injects the urge to write a post I supposed. So, Ima start it with "In the name of ALLAH, most Gracious, most Compassionate".

Reminiscing the past, I ran through some events which took place few months back, when I was still in the foundation program. People were curios about Egypt, asking this and that, piling questions and thoughts that no man deigns to answer. Eventually, they made it through, found the masterpieces which became the complement to this one quest. To be rude, most of them find that Egypt is not as wonderful as their 'tanah air'. Acquiescing with this? Nope. In my point of view, nothing is perfect, acquiring both flaw and its antonym is a must. Tho some of the people here talk roughly and less affable, I never ever loathe this life I have here. In the other hand, I think that Egypt is LOVELY. =) After reading my brother's post regarding Husnuzzon, I desire something new and it is called "acumen". To make it short, I'll point out my reasons for the word "Lovely".

1) When you enter shops, do you often hear Quran recitations? Here, it'll keep lingering in ur ear canal.
2) Do you often see people recite quran? =). "Countless" is what I can say. The Apple of the attestor's eyes.
3) Have you ever being greeted with 'salam' by a bicyclist? Or a pedestrian? It's TOO COMMON here.
4) Have you ever heard multiple 'euphonious humming sound' roaming simultaneously? As for me, I'm hearing it 5 times a day, 7 days a week. xD
5) Have you ever had difficulties in finding a place to perform the 'Sholat'*Particularly when travelling*? Here? No problem dude.
6) Have you ever found a person characterized by sweet, lovely, exuding tender and care when confronting his/her 'acquaintances'? In Egypt, 'tetamu' is everything. Treating 'tetamu's as nobly as possible is their obligation.
7) When was the last time you saw pious man/woman? I could say Egypt has myriad people of this kind.
8) Have you ever heard Khutbah or performed Solat Jummat in a mall? Big maLL? One like that midvalley megamall? I did when I was at St. Stephano*dunno how to spell this*. FYI, St.Stephano is a big-but-apparently-not-so-big-when-compared-to-midvalley mall.
9) Wanna know more? Come to Egypt! I cant guarantee that you will experience these in a short period of time but, the moment you discover these, you'll grow fond of Egypt. <3

Just my two cents. Have a good day.

Btw, If you found errors in my writing*Grammatically or whatsoever* feel free to tell me. I would really appreciate that.

Languages

2009-03-22T00:32:00.007+02:00

Greetings,

I have neither possessed good command nor eloquence of any language. But the little thing I have is a portion of me brain which yearns liberty to share things with people. Why not? =)

Recently I presented a presentation entitled Puberty. Nahh. It wasnt terrible. 'Not bad' I guess. Blame the retainer*currently wearing it in me mouth*! I sounded 'pelat'. Nvm. But it does feels good doing it. For those who keeps elude doing presentation, "Stop avoiding. Take the opportunities or u might end up banging ur head on the wall". I feel dreary to continue writing about Bahasa Inggeris thus I want to share something regarding Arabic language.

What more can be said apart from 'the language of the quran' ait? It is a beautiful language, descended from ALLAH. One who understands it can be labelled as LUCKY. For those who arent, start learning it! To converse in a particular language ure not born and nurtured with is difficult, truly difficult. Unless you can utilize ur brain, render it working at its maximum level, then only I can give it a 'no problem'. Sadly, most of us are not like that, not even close. But we do can improve it, impossibilities are absurd. Speaking of eloquence and fluency, how do we obtain those? By what means?

I'll tell you how:-
1) Go take tuition classes, but put what you've learned into practical. Human's RAM(Random Access memory) is very low. You cant expect ur brain to memorize it only by reading.
2) Try reading quran and its translation.(+1)
3) Please speak/chat/converse with Arabs. This is the most crucial part, the main KEY! A shoutout for those who are living in any arabic country, "You might dun wan to go back to mesia*for good* after a long period yet still being a jargonistic-malay-words-user."
4)Its unnecessary to add the fourth. =)

Basically, i'm doing all of these things. FYI, I can speak arabic, a little*=(*. But this little thing enables me to enhance my command in arabic. And please dont be afraid to ask. Everyday, I try to add new vocabs. I even asked what does the word 'straw' sounds in arabic, what is this and that. And I feel good doing it. Furthermore, If u want to save money while shopping here*in Egypt* learn their accent, dispute over ridiculous prices, then u'll get to buy goods at a below average price. As simple as ABC. But first, ur efforts must match your anticipations. *Grins*. -the end-.

Pray for my success, 29th.xD

A confession of mine.

2009-03-20T03:52:00.009+02:00

Hi readers,

A sightseer of my blog recently commented "Hurm.. Try to share something that u know with ur blog's readers". What she meant literally was, 'share something beneficial instead of writing trifles'. Yeah. Lately I'm updating for the sake of updating itself. To be honest, the chief reason I created this blog was to improve my english. I try to impress the readers tho my writing skills are on the same level of the low-grade schooler in english country. Humans are pathetic. When I feel like I'm 'out' of vocabs, thats the moment I slouch in front of my pc and add up the array of 'draft'. A word is not made for a single usage. Haishh. I need to hone this so-called-talent by changing my perceptions first.

Honestly, I wanted to make this blog appears more like a 'diiniah' blog. But yeah, why do I feel bad for it? Because I'm not pious enough? Or its going to get boring? Well, the one and only reason*that I'm able to distinguish* is I try to entertain the readers. The fact is PEOPLE tend to skip reading 'prolix' writing about religious things. Thats the fact that I have to concur with. SOMETIMES, when someone sends a message*to me* entitling religious words such as "10 azab di akhirat", my first thought is "spammer"*Note that I EMPHASIZED the word sometimes* . But yeah, to err is human to forgive is divine. Forgive me LORD. Then the good side of mine intervened "Reading it wont do harm. Come on! A fleeting moment you spend on this thing will cost you fortunes." And it does worked out. :).

If it is ALLAH's will, I'll try to include pieces of advices, more like 'lucrative' thingy frquently. - the end- . Not to forget, try reading Shurah Al-kahfi every Friday. May ALLAH bless us.

I'm dawdling yet I havent even start my revisions. Screw me. :(

Ouch..

2009-03-18T21:29:00.001+02:00

Before I start writing this parody, note that my blog's links er changed. Pls dun be disheartened if ur blog is not in list. I'm restoring it one by one. Frankly, I tried to change the template, but it turned out me deleting some portions of my blog. Pity me pls.. Ok, there you go.!

Waa. *Experiencing culture shock*. Sadly, this sem is different than the previous one. Supposely, I should be happy for the ordeals that i'm going through, but this is just ridiculous. Attending lectures and pretending you understand all of the points? Playing Diablo 2 till shuboh n yeah, sleep all the way till zuhr. T T. Being taggggged countless times and acts innocently "Tagg? What is that?"*Sorry to all my frens who tagged me, truthfully i've been caught in busyness. Gomenne..:)* I have a lot of things to do, but still how did I stuck myself in front of my pc and have time for blogging? Oh ALLAH, help me...

*procrastinating, bro I'm following you*

I'm in despair. My brain seems like er, cant interprets data. I was clueless during lectures. For the first time, I'm feeling down. SPM is not difficult like tis. Aaaaa. I have to get back on me feet. Nevertheless, I feel rajin to go to classes atm. Dunno why. Perhaps its because I'm stalking a person. ahhahaha. HAHHA. lallalalalalal. *skipping*.

My mid sem's examination is around the corner. *its distinct to me eyes if i peek at the corner*.
I tried so hard to motivete myself*to start ulangkaji etc²*. Then this one guy came to me, "Ko x yah blaja dowh untuk mid sem." "Pehal?" I spat. Then he gave a detailed explanation. This coming examination, it will contributes oni 4.6% over 100%. The passing border must i exceed is 60%*if i'm not mistaken*. So, lets play more games instead! Man.. I sux in managing time. If my mom noe this, she'll be upset. Ohh pls dun read tis mom. ^^. i think thats all, jaaa ne~.

Noob? Newb? Baru? x reti?

2009-03-09T18:30:00.005+02:00

Yerp. Aku sudah kalah di round ke-2. Antara faktor² kekalahan aku ialah:-

1) Aku x pernah men ngan rakan sepermainan aku itu.
2) Err, x kan aku nak cakap org noob plak en?Ish2, x elok.
3) Opponent aku hebat? Heck bukannyer MYM ato Ks.Int.
4) Noob noob dan noob..Sien.

Oleh hal yg sedemikian, aku telah mengambil inisiatif untuk menubuhkan dream team aku yg bakal merangkul medal emas taun depan. ameeen. Aku sungguh x reti nak post file kat sinih. Tapi aku ader replay 1st game< Mirana the priestess of the moon. got some good arrows and yeah, dominating. xD. GG GL HF.

Taking a step further..

2009-03-03T18:51:00.009+02:00

Look at the picture below:-

A nice keyboard which I bought for LE60. FYI, keyboard plays big roles in a life of a gamer. A gamer might curse all day long due to certain reasons namely:-

1) "DAMMITT! I PRESSED THE SPACE BAR! BUT WTH IT DIDNT JUMP!!"

2)"OIII! I WAS FOCUSING THE ENEMY! WHY IT TURNED OUT ME ATTACKING THE CREEPS??OMG""< I think that tis is caused by mouse's misclicks.*LOL-ing*

And because of a keyboard too, a gamer might grin all day long:-

1)"HOLY SHIT!! IMP IS BEYOND GODLIKE! Somebody plz kill him!!".

Ahh. xD. Hurm. Somehow I realized that my level is like "langit and bumi" when compared to progamers such as MYM]Grubby(a famous wc3 player) and MYM]H4nn(a famous DoTA player). *sigh*. But I'm way better than em' in education. ;p

Skip this humbling mumbling thing. Now ima talk about 'Hotkeys'. Hotkeys are like shorcuts. To execute something in game, you'll depend on these hotkeys coz you dont want ur right hand to do all the works. To be simplified, playing with keyboard is like playing a piano. Each key plays diff role. xD. So a good gamer can become a good pianist if they wanted too. But these hotkeys sometimes lie far far away from each other. Lets say, in a game the hotkeys are 'K', 'Z' and 'E'. Now, how would u handle pressing these keys with a single hand? This Q edi aroused when I was a noob. Then I found the ultimate solution. Finally..

I found the "Hotkeys changer Software". OMG! I was so happy atm. Now I know how did MYM]Grubby won international tourneys all the times. Lets see what this software can do..Now the hotkeys can be assigned closely, but somehow its confusing.You'll tend to press wrong keys. Nevertheless, i can execute great combos with this.But I'm still new with this.T T. ima get better over time. xD

But thats not all. If I dont mention this next thing, a part of my soul will grieves silently. "Why keyboard aweys get all the credits? What am I to my master Imp? Why...". And yeah, a big thank to my 6month old Microsoft Habu mouse. huahua. All the buttons available(Plz refer to the picture below) on it can be assigned with hotkeys. ^^.

Indulge urself in this whole new competitive gaming world! *Am working hard, I wont let u down MANSOURA-ians!*

Omedeto!

2009-02-27T21:37:00.006+02:00

The foremost thing ima do in this post is, I would like to congratulate my frens who edi terbang to KOREA*Syibol, pulah dll* two days ago. Jealousy aroused when I first hear the astounding news. No one tells me nothing. Nvm. I'm feeling happy for both of them, "Join the club dude!".

GMN. I despise this company. Recently, my fren's mother, went to meet MARA. Due to the newly protruding turmoils caused by this company, they have a price to pay. Students are retaliating(especially my colleagues). They(my frens, excluding me) keep chanting curse words which you do not want to know. The agreement we signed had been scrutinized thoroughly. ALLAH knows I'm happy to know about this, "we are allowed to migrate to other houses". But that's too early to conclude everything. GMN refused to let us go. Surely, they'll face problems if we do so. Furthermore, the never ending internal conflicts edi added up to their array of weakness. Pitying them is a must, NOT!xD. I do not want to elaborate this any further thus putting this parody to a halt. I'll update bout this over time.

"Imran seems ecstatic. He meets his GP to find out what is wrong with him- he's smiling, but he cant stop doing it. After a thorough checkup is done, his GP says "On 6th of March, a DoTA tournament will be held". "Really? Are you kidding me?" he replied. "Oh no! I'm adulting you oni, err teenaging is more appropriate of a word". Imran says, "This is BULL!". "HUSH! MANNER DUDE!" the doctor cried. Imran cringes in fear. Then he stares at his GP with enthusiasm. "And you shall host the tournament, by which it will be held in your house and its an inter-muhafazoh tournament." his GP spat. Imran is speechless. "Maybe this is the reason I smile a lot.." he muttered indistinctly. So his doctor says, "Gambattene!". He replies with a grin and headed back home.." -the end.

Shall this last be teh..

2009-02-23T01:36:00.004+02:00

1. Who tagged you?

A girl, Atie

2. Do you like tags?

Not at all*typing this half-heartedly*

3. What is your current mood?

4. What will you do if your crush says he/she adores you too?

Do I have to tell u this? What good does it do?

5. Will you fall in love with your bestfriend?

MYOB(Mind your own bisnes)

6. Which will you prefer, loving someone or being loved by someone?

Hated by everyone.xD

7. What is your favourite food?

Spicy pork?Bak kut teh? Barangkali...haha

8. If the person you dislike is right in front of you, what will you do?

Stare at him/her..

9. What do you wish to eat today?

Dadah

10. What would you do if a stranger comes to you and say i love you

WTH?? Thats tard..

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?

I prefer seeing someone else, a girl prolly? I'm not my own type. I cant give birth either. So y Bother see myself in future?

12. What are the reason that could make you so tensed up?

Having sux net connection.

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?

Kind, generous, good, bla3x.(Shawerma lahmah 1 pasnih)

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?

Rich and married. THERE IS NO POSSIBILTY FOR BEING SINGLE WHEN U'RE RICH! Money can buy happiness indeed.

15. Who would you like to see the moment you wake up?

Any living being. As long as nyawa dikandung jasad, I'm grateful enough. AlhamduLILLAH.

16. What's the character must have in your partner?

Which partner? Too general laa.Sien..

17. What are you most passionate about?

Games

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing that someone has done?

Neither.

19. Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?

Why in the world do I have to answer this?

20. Who are the 5 person that you wuld like to tag?

Nobody. Lets put an END! xD

Zzz..Sien..

2009-02-17T22:06:00.011+02:00

Despite the commencement of the 2nd SEM, tears of regret pouring profusely. "My hope, my life, has ended.." so he said. "Ima read novels, do good deeds", that's what he spat few weeks back. It was utter nonsense! The outcomes defy everything, every single vow he claimed, every word he uttered. Woe is me! Ahah.. ter'emo' plak. Bla 3x.

Nvm, I wrote the previous paragraph just to make clear that I'm no longer a free man. Burdened by works and responsibilities, I bow before the promises I made not long ago. xD

Here's the main story I'm about to share. FYI, I found a new house but it's not furnished, no sofa, no 'sakhonah' no nothing. The reasons> it looks new + the rent is cheaper! 700Genih instead of 2300+ that we are(me n my ahlul bait) currently paying. The main problem> GMN is blackmailing us! They said that we're gonna get penalties if we move out while the contract is still valid. WTH?? I still can recall their representative's words vividly, "Adek2 boleh keluar dari rumah tu lepas 2 bulan, tapi duet deposit bulan terakhir akan di'burn' ". So? We stayed patiently + 4months. Now what else do they want? Hunger for money is what they are. I can write tons of bad things about this big corrupted company, luckily, not in da mood. You shud thank me GMN! If the time was right, u'd be abolished completely edi!

Another forlorn story is I DO NOT KNOW MY RESULT. It was hung! Suffocating and now lying on the verge of death. Seeing people showered with happiness of getting mumtaz etc2, even saddened me. I should've feel happy for them, but how could I? Why in the world these things happened to me?? WHY? zzzzzz...

My achievements during this winter break:-

Finished playing 20+ Dota games (LAN)>a game took at least an hour! *Grants +15 to Skills*

Managed to read 60+ pages of this novel.*am trying hard*. Grants +4 to Knowledge

Sleeping 24/7. *Grants 50+ to Strength*

Jaulah n walking-walking. *Grants +20 to Agility*

P/S:-
*kesemue karangan2 ini tidak menggambarkan perasaan sebenar penulis*

Words

2009-02-11T03:31:00.005+02:00

WARNING! Do NOT read this entry if you are good in 'bahasa inggeris' edi! Or else, you will waste your precious time!

Fond of writing in 'bahasa inggeris'? But lack vocabs? Tend to use same words? Find your compositions boring and prolix? Hereafter, you will suffer from the humdrum of writing! But worry not! These tips(I'm about to mention) might come in handy:-

1) Read a lot. OFC!
2) bla 3x.

Now, these are boring...

*Cutting the crap*

If you're looking for vast varieties of words try www.dictionary.com (or other webpages or applications like this one)

Search for a word and there are they, the synonyms! Pick one with the most ridiculous pronunciation and "BAMM"! But yeah, do not exaggerate. xD

You should use a dictionary too. This will be very useful.

Above all, if you're ardent enough writing in English you should write promptly! Stop hesitating. Even if you were to write like a 5th grader, care not!

"Errors are men's portals of discoveries"

*Still left much to be desired* Chayo!

Smile.xD

2009-02-09T21:00:00.000+02:00

Once upon a time, there was a boy. He loved to eat sweets and candies but he loathed brushing his teeth. He kept living such life which eventually lead to a catastrophe. His teeth grew not in an orderly manner, wildly! He started to worry. Days and nights he mused over this matter. Years passed and he totally forgot it. Unfortunately, he became the person he shouldn't have to. He forgot how to smile. Mortified by his not-so-good-arranged-teeth, he opted to seal his mouth tight. It was a curse. Until one day..

His mother asked him to wear braces. He was astounded by her words. "It's impossible! I wont go there! I CANT!". Ever since he was an innocent cute looking child, he cringed from dental clinics whenever he sees one. It was a hell for him. There, he heard screams, he saw grimaced faces and blood. "TERRIBLE!". But he can't elude it forever. Ultimately, he acquiesced with his mother's order. It was not a mistake. His decision availing him. Now, his teeth are braced by those adorable braces altogether. The charm once he had possessed clinging back onto him. He can smile agreeably and he loves doing it. He is indeed happy man. -the end-

So?

Referring to dictionary.com, smile is (verb) to assume a facial expression indicating pleasure, favor, or amusement, but sometimes derision or scorn, characterized by an upturning of the corners of the mouth.

And among the reasons we have to smile:-

1. Smiling makes us attractive.

We are drawn to people who smile. There is an attraction factor. We want to know a smiling person and figure out what is so good. Frowns, scowls and grimaces all push people away -- but a smile draws them in.

2. Smiling Changes Our Mood

Next time you are feeling down, try putting on a smile. There's a good chance you mood will change for the better. Smiling can trick the body into helping you change your mood.

3. Smiling is Contagious

When someone is smiling they lighten up the room, change the moods of others, and make things happier. A smiling person brings happiness with them. Smile lots and you will draw people to you.

4. Smiling Relieves Stress

Stress can really show up in our faces. Smiling helps to prevent us from looking tired, worn down, and overwhelmed. When you are stressed, take time to put on a smile. The stress should be reduced and you'll be better able to take action.

5. Smiling Boosts Your Immune System

Smiling helps the immune system to work better. When you smile, immune function improves possibly because you are more relaxed. Prevent the flu and colds by smiling.

6. Smiling Lowers Your Blood Pressure

When you smile, there is a measurable reduction in your blood pressure. Give it a try if you have a blood pressure monitor at home. Sit for a few minutes, take a reading. Then smile for a minute and take another reading while still smiling. Do you notice a difference?

7. Smiling Releases Endorphins, Natural Pain Killers and Serotonin

Studies have shown that smiling releases endorphins, natural pain killers, and serotonin. Together these three make us feel good. Smiling is a natural drug.

8. Smiling Lifts the Face and Makes You Look Younger

The muscles we use to smile lift the face, making a person appear younger. Don't go for a face lift, just try smiling your way through the day -- you'll look younger and feel better.

9. Smiling Makes You Seem Successful

Smiling people appear more confident, are more likely to be promoted, and more likely to be approached. Put on a smile at meetings and appointments and people will react to you differently.

10. Smiling Helps You Stay Positive

Try this test: Smile. Now try to think of something negative without losing the smile. It's hard. When we smile our body is sending the rest of us a message that "Life is Good!" Stay away from depression, stress and worry by smiling.

*Copied from http://longevity.about.com/od/lifelongbeauty/tp/smiling.htm *

Forlorn story, told by an idiot.

2009-02-01T19:02:00.007+02:00

Greetings..

Its over. The exam ofc. I'm a free man, oni for 2 weeks more, unfortunately. I have too many things to write, but cant put it in words. It's troublesome having thoughts that arent meant to be wrote down. Now I am in Cairo. Went to the maa'rad kutub a.k.a bookfair for the sake of reminiscing my old times. I oni bought a mag, "which digital camera should I buy?" which doesnt help much coz it's written there "march 2005". Now wth? hahah. my bad. I should consult someone..*pondering on who might the person be?*

I lost my cause in blogging. Is that a bad thing or what? But its fun to keep on doing this coz this is more like a diary to me. I browse my older posts. What happened with the 'labels'? Err. hahah. That is unanswerable, for me. I keep writing gibberish which less beneficial. To content myself? Perhaps. Maybe i'll keep on blogging hoping that one day, my posts will be compiled, "Imran's Diary". Corny? It is. If u ever found this book in future, believe me, u dont want to peek inside. *>.<*.

Now I'm musing. What should I do next? How do i spend this not-so-holy-days of mine? Sleeping? Reading? Pondering on something? Games? I guess i will know when the time comes. Now i want suggestions, "How do u make ur blog beneficial to the readers?". Feel free to drop some comments or suggestions. *damai luar*

Funny. Fun. Amusing. Tickling?

2009-01-15T14:04:00.002+02:00

Sungguh lawak terase pabile membacer older posts aku. Mengaper aku rase sungguh kelakar? baru kutahu perasaan org yang membacer post aku setelah aku membacernyer 3 bulan yang mendatang. HAHAHAHAHAH!

ROFLMAO!! Lawak2!!..

Post ini untuk meraikan internet yang x seberape layak dipanggil internet yang bertapak kembali di rumah ku. *Damai luar*!.

Peperiksaan..

2009-01-13T13:14:00.003+02:00

Peperiksaan memeritkan. Menebeliakkan mate2. Memutuskan urat2. Mengeringkan cerebralfluid.. Mengkontangkan intra ocular fluid. Menyebabkan osteoclast bertindak dengan ganas. Menghancurkan segale2 periosteum. WAHHHHHHHHH!

Mengaper xm perlu diadekan? Perlukah? PERLU! Namun masih ader manusie yang lalai. sehinggekan sanggup pergi ke cc untuk mengambil replay2 DoTA dan Wc3(ladder) untuk dijadikan bahan rujukan. Mane pergi semue buku2? Nota2? MANA!!!??

Dalam otak laa beb..hahaha
Doakan kejayaan aku. Ameeeen.*semoger aku x repeat xm. ameeen. ameeeen

For..

2008-12-29T13:06:00.003+02:00

1st Muharram 1430H.

The earth revolves around its axis whilst I'm teetering to a vague end.
So many have changed but whats left for me is my blatant incompetence.
For each dawn of a new life comes at a price.
Difficult.
For the past that I was is eclipsing, engulfing every bit of the new me.
People tend to err. Sinners they are.
Repetition of it,
the occurrence we forbid, but succumbed to our habit.
Remorse and regret dwell at the bottom of ones heart.
Permanently engraved there.
Why do we keep feeding our famished temptations?
And salvation is what we crave for?
Change, for damnation to be eluded...

Once again, I love to quote this again and again,

To err is human to forgive is divine

Salam Maal Hijrah.Jom pose tasuah ngan asyura(ke-9&10).
Dan aku meminte maaf jike ade yg trase hati kerna kebizian daku dalam mereply segale-gale yang patut di reply,

For I am a busy man*thx mok.haha*

Lancong-melancong-melencong

2008-12-21T12:20:00.017+02:00

Hi viewers,

On15th of December, my brother came here. His plane landed at Sharm el sheikh airport. Therefore, I had to go to sharm el-sheikh to fetch him. Unfortunately, i just stayed at the bus station of sharm el sheikh regarding the expensiveness of everything. *Hating EGYPT*. I waited my bro there with another bro. After dat, we went to DAHAB and gone straight away to St Catherine or Jabal musa or Bukit Tursinar. We climbed the tur. I nearly lost my legs. T T. WAS TIRING! I dun wan go there anymore!haha. Reached at the summit at 4 in the morning. It was dark, n frigging cold. Almost suffer from hypothermia. From that moment onwards, I started to thank more to god for the sun n heat he give us. *ALHAMDULILLAH*. Performed shuboh prayer *the water was so cold*. N we watched the sunrise. Ahhhh. So SO bEauTiFul!

err..to lazy to type. lemme share some cool pics of cool people n places.^^

Nervousness?

2008-11-24T13:07:00.001+02:00

Have u ever stood in front of people to give a speech? It’s very unusual for me. What was it like back there? Confronting nervousness? For me, yes! A traumatic event it seemed. Whenever I stand in front of people for the sake of throwing few words or more, nervousness took hold of me. Eg:-

Spit few words>gone completely blank>mutter indistinctly> itchy>scratch here and there>humiliate self. Ouh, and hear people laughing too. =\

It is normal for the people who didn’t have talent on mesmerizing people with speeches. And I do feel sad about it. Some people said that to be able to speak fluently in front of people/crowd is a gift. And who are these lucky people blessed by this gift? They’re mostly the politicians, lawyers and people who are working in a field which require fluency in words. But for the not-so-good-public-speaker, don’t frown and whine about not having this gift. There’s always a room for improvement. =) . Let me share with u some tips.

Don’t be too prepared. For example, preparing each word to be spoken. U can do some rehearsal for it, but not text memorizing! Only memorize the major things that are to be conveyed to viewers. Only MAJOR! Or you’ll find yourself get caught by spasm.*erk*.
Control your body language. Stop scratching, and pretend to look on the slide show (if there’s), coz it wont help u. Calm yourself. If you are hesitating on saying something, take a deep breath and think what to be spitted out. People might laugh at u, but who cares ait?
Ur mind set. Don’t let the numbers of audience startle you. Bury in your mind that they’re the dumbest colony which ever exists. They know nothing, hence just say all u want without worrying anything, coz they’re dumb. =)
Care bout your language. Whether it is Malay, English, Arabic etc, u need to improve it if u were to convey your speech in it.
Pray to ALLAH so that things will run smoothly.

Albeit I haven’t applied some of the tips, I found that these might come in handy. So, go gain experience. Ignore laughs and denigrations from people. Nervousness is a thin fragile wall. Overwhelm it with practices as the saying goes

“Practice makes perfect”

Gambattene.

Alex Vs Man

2008-11-17T11:20:00.002+02:00

Aiseh. Macam sudah tidak tahu menahu menulis dalam bahasa penjajah. Oleh sebab yang demikian, aku cuma mampu menulis dalam bahasa ibunda. Baru-baru ini, satu perlawanan bola keranjang persahabatan diadakan di Mansoura. Perlawanan yang melibatkan pelajar tahun 1,2 dan 3 fakulti perubatan dari Universiti Mansoura dan Universiti Alex telah melakar satu seratus kenangan dalam kotak memori aku. Aku gembire. Walaupun terok dikalahkan, namun perlawanan ini telah menyuntik semangat baru kepada aku. Namun aku agak kecewe kerane IZAD tidak dapat hadir mewakili muhafazoh ALEX atas kesengalanmnye. Ader ker patut dier tertinggal tren. Haishh.. Pape la. Asalkan aku bahagie. Hahaha. Ini antara kenangan yang sempat diabadikan dalam bentuk soft copy. =)

Coz I had a bad day...

2008-11-10T15:12:00.019+02:00

Ahh...dah arr berkurun x der tenet..Abes ilang sumer vocabs english aku..T T.
1 perkare yg aku benci kat mesir, deal ngan org mesir. Dah arr tadik penat menunggu nak wat a/c bank, 2+ jam! Dalam tempoh mase 2, cumer 5 akaun jer yang dier siapkan(aku g ngan memembers). Sampai turn aku, "IN SYA ALLAH BUQRA"(insya ALLAH esok). !@#$^%&%&^. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA...luahan...

Di sini aku nak upload beberape recent pics kehidupan aku kat mesir. Tenet pown cam hape. Abes ilang mood aku..

Sehari selepas hujan batu(ais), dpan umah

Lol. In practical class

Kat fast food mesir, "mo'men" atau mukmin, atau erti lainnye org yg beriman. haha

Sukan yang aku x leh tinggalkan. Gogo!

Pagi jumaat di tepi laut@pantai kat alex.

Antara Brand yg tengah menjadi kegilaan remaja2 di mesir. HAHAHAHA! LOL on that! Jumper mende nih time kat alex

Selipar yg aku sempat beli kat alex

Kat fountain of wealth(men buboh jer namer).

Vodafone for life!

Quest

2008-10-11T12:36:00.005+02:00

The early wind of winter blew softly, giving me a slight chill. A cuppa hot chocolate revitalizes me. Now I'm in the mood for writing. I already settled down here in Mansoura. At first, I was taken aback. It's a nice city, indeed. This badly rumoured city is not as bad as the rumour sounds. The food here are quiet cheap. Less expense on food~. The transportation and everything are waayy more cheaper than in Cairo. On the contrary, the city is not as nice as Cairo. FYI, either cairo or mansoura(Alex oso), all are like Perkampungan Melayu(not Hadhari, sory Paklah).Malays are everywhere.^^. Nice or not, I'm here to gain knowledge, not to whine or denigrate.*grateful*.

My eid..Nothing extraordinary happened.Just like past years. Instead of family, I celebrated this years eid with friends. This quest of knowledge desolating me. I'm doing things solely.No more "Bancik dah smayang?","Cukup2lah main game" n so on. No reminder. *Praying for the best*
My house. It's quiet nice. Global Medic Network provided us one. The rent is 60usd per month, for a SINGLE person. Each house(A floor counted as a house) have 6 living being.Which means, the rent for a single month would be 2k Genih. Ahhh..GMN is having a lucrative business. We, the students are their source of income. Keep sucking every penny from us till we dry out. I want to find a new one...!! Among the 40 students of my batch, I'm the only one who HAVEN'T paid the rent(haha). Nvm. Only if they ask for it,then only I pay. They're filthy rich at the moment, perhaps they'll forget bout this.*smirking*. This house is quiet spacious n comfortable. But 2000 Genih still not worth it. We can get a better house with that ludicrous amount of money.

My study program already commenced. Time to go all out. HERE I COME! But still.. there's a distraction. Once it distracted me, I got carried away. Far far away from the reality. I gone into a whole new world. A world Where people drink healing salve for cure, where shaman heal people, where sorceress n wizard cast spells. Ouch. It's my PC.. This intricate device can creates a magnetic field. Anyone who comes near will bind to it, fOrcing em to play. PLay. PLay. Till death fetch em.LOL. I can't give in to temptations. Never will I! "Bancik, jangan men banyak2..","Bancik, ingat study gak", bancik this and that. Those words still linger at my ears. Thx to my family. I wont fail all of u. Oh no. I have to revise my lectures notes*haha*. GTG. BB. Here's some pics.^^

From top: Toilet, dying room, dying room(my friend's studying, for real!lol), Pagi rayer, listening to a song~

Mim shod raa'

2008-09-30T11:12:00.002+02:00

When we combine these three letters which is miim, shod n raa', it'll create a word which sounds, misr. Some people said that the letter mim stands for musibah(problems,musykillah), shod for Sobr(patient) n raa' for redha(err, u know it edi).

A bad day I had...

Yesterday was my luckiest day. God tested me. Early in the morning(9 p.m), I went to the Nile Hilton Hotel. I wanted to cash my traveller's cheque. So i went there n found the American Express booth. Sadly it was closed at the moment. I asked the receptionist, "Afteerr thirty minutes Insya ALLAH" he replied. Ahhh..I sighed. It's not an ordinary 30minutes! It's Egyptians 30minutes!(LOL). So I went to HSBC later(malas nak tunggu).

At HSBC
I asked the kerani at the counter whether I can deposit my traveller's cheque into my a/c. She said "YES"! A big yes!! Then i filled the form given. She ordered me to countersign the cheques. And yes, I did so. I gave her the filled form n cheques. She then spoke with her(err pegawai atasan). She asked me whether I have an a/c here. Hell no! I just came here few days. Then I can see changes in her gesture. An ominous one. After moments, she stared at me. And she said, "Sir, I'm afraid that this is not possible..". Oh my! Wth? "Y didn't u said earlier??" I raised my voice(only a bit laa) along giving her a deadly gaze. Her mouth was like firmly sewed. *A fleeting moment of dead silence*. When i looked at her cute innocents face, my anger gone. Disappeared swiftly.

The problems
I already countersigned cheques(when accumulated, it worth 2200usd). There was date written on it, "29/9/08". It'll be INVALID the next day onwards! Dang. I got no other option. I ran an errand back to the Nile Hilton Hotel. I had to. The transportation cost@costed(which one ar??) me a fortune. Thank god. It was opened. So I did what I intended to do before. To verify the process, the penjage kaunter asked for my passport n I gave him. FinalllY!! I managed to cash my cheques. But I had to pay 3% charges fee. 66USD!! ARGHH..Sad...So sad...

After all, that wasn't the biggest problem of all. The worse has yet to come. *Later the same day*. I felt something amiss. My oh my..I LEFT MY PASSPORT AT THE AMERICAN EXPRESS BOOTH! Then my friends coaxed me to become calmer..............

Today
I retrieved my passport. ALHAMDULILLAH! Pengalaman mendewasekan...T T

Sudah..xD

2008-09-21T22:19:00.002+02:00

AlhamduliLLAH..aku dah sampai mesir...Lamer ooo x jejk bumi nih...*quick update*

Aku akan update bile PC aku yang power siap di assembled n biler ader kelapangan..

Toooooodllleeesss~LOL

Now the money has gone..

2008-09-16T15:38:00.015+02:00

Hari nih g Low yatt. N bought some intricate parts for my PC. Malas nak menaip. So let the pictures do the typing~

AMD Phenom QUAD CORE 9550

*The CPU - YEAH*

ATI Radeon HD4850

*agagaga*

ATI Radeon HD 4850

*Looks a bit cool ait?:]*

Kingston 2+2 GB RAM ddr2

*The accelerator*

Microsoft Habu

*This completes me. xD*

Razer Mantis Gaming Mat - Speed

*Assist in gaming*

Happy, but still sad. Now money has gone. Dissappeared in a split second. Namun, AKU DAH PUAS!!xD

It's all about money..

2008-09-13T04:49:00.005+02:00

Greetings,

Yesterday was a happy day for me. I attended the pre-departure program at UniKL, Jalan Tun Ismail. Met the flyers-gonnnabe. And yeah, i received money. To be honest, it's boring ait to attend such kind of ceremony, but, the fact is MONEY does make people happy(err whats the connection?*dun get it myself*).*happy*. The first slot was a spirit burner talk by a MARA's council member. I was quiet moved by his speech. Yep, I won't screw up the money given to me, for ALLAH's sake! Sat there till 1p.m. Then to the masjid I went. I arrived at Masjid Kampung baru. Took wudhu' n sought a masjid(in arabic,"a place for sujud"). OMG! There was lotta people. *observing2*. "Yeah, gotcha" I mumbled. Found a place. But there was NO roof or canvas on top of it. I sat there under the scorching sun. Phew, what a looooong tanning session. But the wind blew frequently though. *cobaan*.

After finished, went back to the building. I was excited waiting for the last slot. A slot by Bank Islam. Finally, the time had come!! They gave me money(usd, rm) n traveller's cheque. For those who are reading this: Dun laugh at me please. I'm not use to hold this kind of amount. Though it's not much for some of you, but this is heellll lot for me. Nvm, I'll get use to it over the upcoming 6 years of torment.Not to forget, there's an idiom which sounds "A fool and his money are soon parted"(just for sharing. :])*Should learn to become more thrifty, or else, I'm going to live a poverty-stricken life. : ( *. The program end at 5.10p.m. Drove by anxiety and curiosity, I went to see En. Fadhil, the MARA's officer whose in charge in@on(mind telling me which one?) taking care of us to ask some question. Instead of answers that I was expecting of, he gave me a look. An ominous look! Yes, it was. He said, "Ur hair...". "Erm...ouh, I'll get rid of this before departure sir!" I intervened promptly. Then the journey going back home started(after I got the answers of course).

I'm a man of my word. Do I have to cut my hair??NOOO!!What sould I do?? Yeah..I said "..I'll get rid..". That doesnt mean that I must cut my hair short. Maybe I'll use styling gell, n comb my hair until it look short n smart.Or maybe...wear songkok? Hahahah! A good manipulator I AM! This is what I get from MRSM. Thx MRSM! Dun blame me MARA~*innocent*

*At KTM*
WOW! It was like in a tin sardinnnn. So many people. I missed a train due to the lottness of peeps. Ten minutes after, another train came. I rode it. Luckily, I bought a bottle of carbonated drink(Tinge, LOL) n a roll, so I broke my fast, inside the train. I arrived at home approximately at 8.30p.m. HAHAH! A delightful day I had.

Balek?

2008-09-09T16:47:00.003+02:00

Deringan loceng telefon bimbit ku memecah keheningan pagi seraya ku terjaga dari lena. Ku hela nafas yang panjang, kemudian ku hembus dengan perlahan sambil melafazkan hamdalah. "Cik(panggilan ku di rumah), bangun! Sahur2!" ajak ibuku. "Ye mii.." sahut ku. *cut the crap*. Kemudian aku sahur n tidor balek. Sesudah azan suboh berkumandang terus ku basahi anggota wudu' dengan tertib kemudian menunaikan solat suboh. Pastu tido balek.haha.

*7.40 a.m*
Abah aku kejutkan. Aku terlupe plak ader temu janji ngan dokter pagi nih. *dipendekkan citer*

*kat klinik ortodontik, atas bangku pesakit*
Gigiku diteliti satu persatu. "Huuumpph..Bagus2. Kebersihan tahap maksimas. Caya sama luu" ujar dokter gigiku. Aku sedikit gembira lalu terukir senyuman di bibirku. Namun, kusangka panas hingga ke petang, kiranya hujan di tengah hari. Dokter mencebik muke apabile aku kater dah nak fly dah 20hb nih. "So, camner nak wat ngan braces nih" soalnya. "Bleh x kalo saye sambung kat oversea?" jawabku. "Susah nak cakap. X der org nak amek kes awak nih. Gigi dah arr x lawa. Kunin. n bermacam-macam lagi." ujarnya. Aku terkesima. Beribu-juta persoalan bermain di dalam kotak fikiranku seperti "apekah??Bagaimanekah??macammanekah" dll. "So cadangan dokter camne?" soalku. "Camni. Awak ade 2 pilihan. 1. Cabut braces nih minggu depan, tapi ader sedikit gap antara gigi. Atau awak teruskan rawatan sendiri(nih aku kener wat sniri, tapi braces dikekalkan)". Maka aku pown kater lah minggu depan aku bagi kater putus.

*kat umah*
Setelah bermesyuarat setengah minit ngan umi aku, aku mengambil keputusan untuk meneruskan rawatan braces. So, taun depan aku kene BALEK!!aiseh...baru igt nak lepak mesir. Apekan daye, gunung daik bercabang tige. Haiz..

Pengajaran
Jagelah gigi anda. Jangan jadi macam saye.

Love?Couple?

2008-09-06T04:32:00.002+02:00

Love. A simple word, yet meaningful to us, the human being. Along with love, come hatred, happiness, sorrow n etc. Nowadays, 'kids'[teenagers (due to their immature)] tend to misinterpret the word 'love'. For them, the definite end of love is 'couple'. Love is a necessity. Yes! It is. Then, what about 'couple'(for people who are still single@lonely)? Can a normal being lives through days@weeks@months@years without it? Certainly. Examples, the priests n monks *:)*. Everyone yearns to be loved, thus they'd makes excuses for them to love n to be loved by their so called "hubby, darling, papa, mama n etc". The benefits from this premarital relationship?Lets see...

I asked few people about this irrelevant(I think) relationship. Some of them said, it's good for people in order to IMPROVE their communication skills. Some of them said, this is a good MOTIVATION in studies. These are acceptable. But above all, these are still excuses, exculpation for them to 'kapel2'. As FarizM quoted, "Excuses are lame exculpation". I agree that this feeling(love) is inevitable. It comes whenever it likes. But, when it does comes, it's not an excuse for us to strengthen the 'love bond' and start using 'kata ganti nama@diri' which can make others puke@vomit. So, think wise, make the right decision. May ALLAH bless us.

Sorry for those who pissed off by this prolix writing. ALLAH's prophet said@quoted : "iz lam tastahyi, fasda' ila ma syi'ta". "Apabila kamu sudah tiada rasa malu, maka lakukanlah apa yang kamu suka". So let this be a reminder for us and a new beginning for me. This is my point of view. So it's a bit unfair to denigrate me due to my ignorant as the saying goes "To err is human, to forgive is divine". Romadhon kariim. Peace out~

Meng-intro-dusi

2008-09-04T16:09:00.004+02:00

Hurm..post pertame dalam BM!huhu

Dahulu aku selalu juga mendengar cerita-cerita tentang perkara-perkara yang akan berlaku di akhir zaman. Namun keterlaluan banyak versi cerita-cerita ini membuatkan aku pening. Sehinggalah pada suatu hari abg aku membawa rumah pulang sebuah buku karangan Syeikh Imran Hossein. Buku bertajuk "Jerusalem in the Quran".

Di dalam buku ini, Syeikh Imran(hoho) menerangkan perkara-perkara tentang Jerusalem(dah mmg namer buku pown camtu). Antara sisipan yang menarik:-(setelah ditranslatekan dalam bahase aku)

Semua org tahu dajjal itu ialah makhluk dengan satu mata dan kita turut bersangka dajjal itu memang mempunyai satu mata(lagi satu buta atau takder lansung). Namun, berbeze dengan pandangan Syeikh ini, di mana beliau mengatekan bahawa, ader dua jenis manusia, iaitu mereke yang melihat perkare dengan dua mata dan satu mata. Jika kita lihat kembali sejarah bani Israil, mereke merupakan golongan yang melihat dengan satu mata(yakni sebelah mate*ape bezenye??*) disebabkan keingkaran merika terhadap nabi2 sedangkan golongan yang mempercayai nabi dan beriman dengan nabi ialah golongan yang melihat dengan kedua-dua belah mate. Maka, kalau nak sandarkan perkare ini pade zaman sekarang, boleh disimpulkan bahawa pemimpin yang zalim(ketua dunia) a.k.a Presiden semak(Bush) ialah dajjal.

Amat sukar untuk menerangkan perkara-perkara yang begitu komplex dengan tulisan bukan?
Maka dengan ini@itu, anda-anda yang berminat untuk menimba pengetahuan ini@itu perlulah mencari@merompak@mencuri(dengan care-care yang halaal) buku ini agar dapat dimanfaatkan isi-isinya. Disertakan dengan pembelian buku ini ialah dua keping cakera padat(video ceramah beliau). hoho..Go grab it! Moga-moga kite lebih bersedia di hari muka. In sya ALLAH.

Please give an opinion@opinions

2008-08-22T14:59:00.003+03:00

About:-

Should I keep on blogging using this language instead of using my mother tongue's?

Racism?

2008-08-22T07:44:00.003+03:00

Malaysia has grew up. Everyone knew this fact. Witnessing the development of this country make me feel grateful. I'm grateful to become the Rakyat of this country. But somehow, I can feel something's lacking. It is said that Malaysia is famous for it's multi-racial living country, but I can't feel it. Just because there is no racial wars since the 13th May 1969, we can consider that all races live a happy life, with unity. If so, why would there be UMNO?MCA?MIC?DAP? Each of these parties are build to PROTECT their rights? Protect it from who? Malaysia is a peaceful country. And we the rakyat can walk on the street agreeably, without fear of suicide bomber, thief(doubt this one) and anything that is threatful. So why would there be organizations which claimed, "We protect the rights of our people(race)"??

Really, I hate racial. I was hoping that we(the Rakyat) can destroy the biggest barrier which is racial. I'm very happy whenever I see group of people with different race mingle so well among themselves. As an example, when Lee Chong Wei won the semi-final match in this Beijing's Olympic, the first person he shared his happiness with, was Misbun Sidek. And he even hugged him!

If we scrutinize the Constitution, we can find holes. Flaws are almost everywhere. Y can't we fixed it?Y do the government have to act innocent? Really, I'm hoping someone can fix this. Before it become worst. Before the barrier strengthen itself. Before remorse n regrets become worthless. I'm not blaming the government. The real culprit in this case is the British. They ruined our country and build a barrier between races before our country earn its liberty.

Back on popular demand!

2008-08-21T15:56:00.006+03:00

A month n half..what have I done during this long period??*agaggaga*

Yeah. A lot has progressed. Now I'm back on popular demand. HARHARHAR!! N to store new memories, I deleted many*??*. With help and guidance from ALLAH, I was able to endure a tormenting week at BTN. It was BORING! A salutation to the facilitators who have done their job perfectly at manipulating facts. Days n nights I slouched, as a sign of protest. But none seemed to notice me*I'm a minor character after all*. But there was only a session which I enjoyed the most. It's during the singing of the 'lagu Warisan'(by sudirman)..Very touchy. Tears veiled my eyes. Our ancestors have done splendid job on retrieving our land, soon it will be my turn to contribute to Malaysia, mainly for the posterity .

The torturing camp ended on Friday. The next day, I went to Dewan Bahasa n Pusataka building where all MARA's scholars gathered. I was delighted upon seeing my old friends from other study programmes. Here's a fact, but please don't tell anyone. I skipped the main event! 1.30pm, I gone out of the building. Ran as fast as I can as if I was a fugitive from a crashed police truck. I was thrilled. I went to the Time Square, Plaza Sungei Wang n Plaza Imbi just to accompany my fren's fren whose on search of a brand new basketball shoes. The long journey weakened my knees. Later went ZZzzZZzz~. Here's a snippet from the memorable day:-

UKM

2008-07-10T10:51:00.002+03:00

I enrolled at the UKM on 30th of June. Life's good here. No problem so far. But it's kinda difficult for me to enjoy studying egyptian's language. Perhaps it's because i was taught the basic things, which I already familiarized myself with. Two years living in the 'Land of Prophets' really taught me a lot. A LOT.

*change topic*
Last saturday, I went to alamanda with friends. We planned to watch 'Hancock', instead, we bought 3 tickets for 'Doomsday'. I dunno y. After buying the tickets, we sought sumtin edible, n found McD. Bought Big Mac n started the ingestion. Sat there till Asr. Performed the prayer. Then we went for the movie.

*Inside the hall*
Not a bad introduction. Minute after minute, I can feel the crap coming. I wasn't delighted when the story ended. And there's only a word I can think of to describe this movie, namely, 'rubbish'.I wasted 9 ringgits for this movie. Dun watch this CRAPPY movie. It'll only be a waste of money n time. Finally, we went back to apartment n had a long nap.

A new chapter

2008-06-27T15:00:00.006+03:00

It has been awhile since I wrote the last post..~

Monday, 23rd of June, 5.55 am
I wake up in dizziness. Starting a new day by remembering ALLAH. The first chain is unleashed! Grabbing my toiletries, i teeter to the toilet. Take bath n wudhu' afterwards to unleash the second chain. Finally, I perform the shuboh prayer to unleash the last chain. Yeah~A good day will i have. I have a premonition of something...something big is going to protrude amidst the bzness of the incoming hours. Then i remember something, the result for MARA's scholarship will be out within this week. It could be any day. So, I text my mom n ask her to call MARA to check for result later this day. I take my time wearing my formal attire, n have breakfast. To the class i'm off~

10.15 am(Men hentam jer mase, nak kasik best sket bunyi)
I got a text message from my mom.*opening*. The result is still in(lol). Haiz..I can't pay attention to the lecture. The rumor(regarding the date which the result will be out) is vexing me. The least I can do is pretend to listen attentively.

4.55pm(Yg nih btol nyer waktu)
While resting on my bed, someone's knocking on the door. "Come in" i said. Ouh..The person is fat joe(my old fren at TGB). He enters with his complexion all aglow.
"MARA's result is OUT!" he ejaculated. *shocked*. I'm thrilled at the moment. I grab my henset n dial MARA's phone numbers. All of sudden my henset wat hal..haiz..I'm panic n this henset even panicking me. The last resort is, i look at my roommate with 20cents face. He understands it, n promptly lends me his henset. I press the buttons meticulously coz my hand is trembling with excitement. Then a tooot2x sound can be heard. A man answered. "Assalamualaikum. Boleh saye semak keputusan SPC luar negare lepasan SPM 2007?" i said. "Ur ic no. pls", he replied. "900*0*065123". "Congratulations. You got MARA's scholarship for medicine course, Mansourah's University". I'm delighted. Tears veiled my eyes. I can't describe the feeling i have with words. No word, almost none. I perform the sujud syukur. Praise be to ALLAH the ALMIGHTY!

Later, the same day
But wait, Something amiss. I applied for Alex's University. But i got Mansourah's. Human are greedy. I should be grateful n not question things arranged by HIM. I take my time thinking bout that. Then i notice something. To study at Mansourah's University, students must memorize El-Quran, whilst at Alex's University, memorizing El-Quran is not compulsory. Subhanallah. Maybe HE wants me to be a Hafiz. Then i remember a nas from El-Quran, which is "....they planned, and HE planned, but the greatest planner(dunno the word suits the most) is ALLAH!..."

THANK YOU GOD!

*3 chains itu ialah rantai yang dipasang oleh syaitan time kite tidur.3 cara untuk mengurai ialah, 1)zikrullah lpas bangun tido.2)Amek wudhu'.3)Solat dua rakaat.

Tagged

2008-06-04T23:07:00.002+03:00

I'm posting this one as a correspond to my brother's post~

7 Facts about me

1.Talented.Can excel in many sports(xcept sports which use legs n require body strength)
2.Affable.Like to greet people.(girls is an exception)
3.Trembling all over my body when giving speech in public. *Still unable to overcome this*
4.Like to read manga. I even learn to read from the 'dragon ball' manga.
5.A gamer. Till very end of my life.(kidding meh)
6.A shy person. In front of people of the opposite sex.
7.Always poyo n perasan. Most of the time. (lol)

7 Scariest thing (in my lifetime)

1.Death.
2.Separated from my game's consoles.
3.Having fight with friends.
4.Giving speech in public.
5.Interviews for scholarships.
6.Losing body weight.
7.Murdering a human.

7 feveret songs(currenty)

1.Metal Gear Solid theme songs.
2.Cranberries : Zombie
3.Yui : Love & Truth
4.Yellowcard : Only one
5.The Killers : Mr. Brighside
6.The Killers : When you were young.
7.The Killers. : Somebody told me.

7 Feveret phrases

1.Daym it.
2.Aiseh men.
3.Panas tol ar.
4.S** ar
5.Sienz lor
6.HAHAHAHHAHAHAH(izit counted?)
7.Haizz....

7 most valuable things

1.Experiences.
2.Family.
3.Time.
4.Religion
5.Faith from people.
6.First impression from people.
7.Money.(Kaadal faqiir, yakuunu kufran)

7 `first time` in life.

1.Seat for PTS, UPSR, PMR n SPM examinations.
2.Ride on a plane to Cairo, Egpyt.
3.Own a henset in 2003, which is the nokia 3315.
4.Have crush on a girl named Syafiqah(chinese look, so leng) when i was 7 years old.
5.Injured a friend when i was 6 years old.
6.Live in a hostel at MRSM Serting in 2002..
7.Seeing the turning point of my life (just now).

Intebiu MARA

2008-05-31T20:28:00.008+03:00

Friday-30th of May

I wake up early. My body still feeling lethargic, even after 10hours of decorating and mind-mapping my pillow with special liquid. I perform the shuboh prayer, then i eat nasi goreng prepared by my mother. *burrrpp*. After mekap2, i stroll downstairs n cry out loud "I'm ready!". My father send me to KTM Seremban. I take the train to stesen Bank Negara. Haizz...the waiting is so sienzz(boring)..

*At Medan MARA*
At lobby I meet my old(not so old, just 1-2 years) frens from MRSM TGB namely, izzad, izuan, hariz, fat joe, n hanizar. We, the rejected people, proudly take the lift to 13th floor. Here, I see many other rejected faces(lol).

*Waiting is killing*
I thought that we are going to be interviewed 1 by 1. I'm in despair. So do my friends becoz we are perfectly prepared with 'soalans cepuk Omeh' along with answers. Unfortunately this interview going to be held in a group consisting of 8-10 people. Ouch...wat a pain. The lights from yesterday's hopes quickly fading away. I n my frens wait, n wait for our turn. Praise be to ALLAH! We(the second last group) manage to get 'soalan bocor' from the early interviewed groups.

*Back stabber*
During our waiting period, there are 3 other boys whose going to be interviewed with me n my frens. With arm wide open, the 3 boys invite us to join their discussion. Without hesitation, we join them. Then, one of em' say, "In the room(where the interviews are held) , we are going to be given 6 questions. We must choose one of it, n discuss the matter in that particular question. The question will be decided by majority. I just know few of it(the questions) namely 'missing children' n 'independence day'. ". Then one of em' suggests that we take the question 'independence day' as the question is too general to be discussed. Me and my friends agree. After that, dey all buat hal masing2. Except a person among the 3boys. He gives us(me n my frens) some points. Our time's running out! Now it's our turn to shine! I entered with a salam n a cunning smile. After lending my file of certificates, i take my seat. The head of interviewer starts her brief. She says, "By majority, all of u must choose a topic n discuss about it" . Then we start the discussion. One of the 3 boys namely 'z'(the true identity cannot be exposed to public due to certain reasons) says "I think we should choose the 'independence day' topic", breaking the silence. As planned before, we agree with the topic. Along with izzad, izuan, the three boys n me, there are 4 other girls which make up the group of 10people. The other 4 girls also agree like 'pak turut'. Continuing his words,'Z' starts mumbling this n that about 'independence day'. Then i 'mencelah', pouring brilliant thoughts of mine(ahahhaha). Then 'y' starts to speak. Followed by 'z', 'x'. The cycle keeps on continuing. They are taking all the points available. Me n my frens are speechless. They even dominate the whole discussion, saying this n that controlling what to be discussed about n rejecting other's opinions n suggestions. "Ini sudah lebey" i speak to my throbbed heart. I dun care about myself but I pity my fren which haven't speak a word n even when he speaks, quickly 'dipotong'. Haiz...So cruel of them. We the 'Barbarian'(Ex-MRSM TGB) become passive n only words such as "ya, ya", "correct2" n "I agree" can be spitted from our mouth. The discussion comes to a conclusion. I make a nice conclusion which satisfy myself. The interview ends.

*Smayang Jumaat*
My interview ends approximately at 12.45 p.m. My stomach is grumbling. Phuhh...so hungry, almost cannot bear it. Then me n my frens go to SOGO, planning on having sumtin' to eat. But the time is insufficient. Priority to sholah! Ignoring all the obstacles(restaurants), we walk to Masjid India which is located not far away from SOGO. I take wudhu' n go to 3rd floor where some space is still unoccupied. There are too many people which make me unable to perform sholat tahiyyatul masjid. I sit reluctantly hearing the khutbah attentively even without knowing what it is about(coz the khutbah is in tamil). After I finish the Jumaat prayer n doa lead by the imam, i shuffle out of the masjid. During my way out, I encounter so many beggars. I'm confused. Among them are people who are just fine n healthy, but still begging people 4 money. I didn't mean the handicap is an exception, but at least think la people. God gave us a healthy body to earn money with but not by begging people for it. My pockets are kering, so i can't give them anything n quickly make my way out of the masjid. At the entrance, i see a woman, specifically, a beggar. My fren tell me that, previously, there are people who gave that woman foods n drinks. Nonchalantly, she smelled that foods n drinks 1st. Knowing that it(foods&drinks) didn't suit her taste, she gave it to other beggar. MY GOD!! Beggars can't be choosers! How pathetic this woman is. May ALLAH give them taufiq and hidayah.

*All wet*
Right after settling all the matters, we decide to go home separately. Izwan n Hariz hitching a ride in Izad's car(not his) n make their way home to Bandar Baru Bangi while me n hanizar are left in front of Medan Mara main entrance, gazing at pouring rain. Ouch...I bet i'm going to be all wet. We breath deeply. "1,2.....". "RUN 4 UR LIFE!!" we cry n run through the rain, heading to KTM Bank Negara. We end up having our clothes wet. We buy tickets n wait for the train. Hanizar depart 1st as his train(to 'Pelabuhan Klang') arrives earlier than my train which head to Seremban. Another bad thing is, the rain washed away my gel. My hair looks terrible. Mcm org iban+i have some hingus stuck in my nose. Ewww...Nvm. I sleep all the way to Seremban , ignoring all the lengchai and lenglui who see my hingus goes up and down. At KTM seremban, my father fetch me. A tiresome day i had~

An unexpected call...

2008-05-30T14:17:00.006+03:00

Last wednesday, i attended a biology lecture. While listening to my lecturer attentively suddenly my phone vibrated(coz in silent mode). A call from "+032xxxxxx"!! I was puzzled..izit a prank call? Or izit a call from MAS? I answered it. A woman. "Is this Imran?" she asked. "yeah..I'm Imran.." i replied. "Please come to MARA hq at jalan raja laut this coming Friday, 13th floor, Bilik Bunga Raya for an interview". Oh god..Wutta? Just by calling? Wut if I didn't answer it? I was excited anyway, so nvm...

I called my mom and informed her bout that. I hung up then. Later she called n she said she'll fetch me that evening. Ouch...a hectic evening it was... i packed my stuff n some clothes to be washed(so malas..). 7.40p.m- I reached my 'heaven'. Go on9, googling this n that..went to sleep.....

Yeah~

2008-05-29T06:25:00.005+03:00

It's damn interesting here. Over 3k 'makhluk' with different attitudes, faces and interests are here to be encountered. Life at KMNS intrigued me. I can't really describe my feeling with words. One evening in a table tennis room, i met a chinese boy. He was playing table tennis while i was waiting for my turn to play. At first i thought that his playing skill is average but not until...

Finally i managed to hold the racket and about to play against him. I served the ball, he replied with normal stroke. Then i added up some spin in order to bring him down. But my effort was futile. He managed to return it with a greater n heavier top spin and he even placed the ball at the corner of the table. Then i realized that i am not in the same league as him. I lost the game miserably, and my calculations went wrong. But he's indeed a nice person. He even praised me for my not-so-good skill. I be-friended him that moment. His name is Eng. Previously, when my match against him was in progress, i asked him whether he ever represent his school or sumting. He said "Saya cuma wakil rumah sukan saja...(i only represented my sport's house..)". Then i asked him the same question again. He said "No. 3 in Negeri Sembilan". *shocked*.No wonder we are like "langit n bumi".huhuhu. -End of story-

Here, i am also learning many things such as playing guitar, new languages n many more. I am learning playing guitar from a roommate of mine. He brought an acoustic guitar. I'm currently learning to play the song "another you" by cromok. A very nice song! But my fingertips hurt badly..T T..i'll soon recover~Here's the list of my newly acquired words/phrases :-

Tamil
-ni=you
-na=me
-poi=go
-save'=die
-padi ke= study
-ni poi save'(my feveret phrase)

Chinese(mixed)
-leng=beautiful,handsome
-lui=girls
-lengchai=handsome boy
-lenglui=beautiful girl
-ngokyulei?="do i call u?"
-kaplui=??(hehehe)
-lao po=wife(here, they address girlfren as lao po)

As the words "leng chai" are widely used and known by people here, i frequently call people with it. And when they responded, i say "ngo kyu lei?". Heheheh~

Grateful...

2008-05-17T15:34:00.006+03:00

Hurm..The orientation week is history. Thank goodness it's over. May it be my last one*Ameeen*. I just came home this morning. Right after entering my house, i promptly strolled up stairs, turned on the PC n on9. Everything has changed. Reading articles n posts regarding scholarships saddened me. WOE IS ME! I'm so envious towards my friends hu got MARA n JPA scholarships. Some of them will further their studies overseas. But wait! Should i envy them? I need not! *brainwashing*. It's pointless to whine on this. What's the enviable aspects on furthering study overseas? Is it the geographical condition of the other countries? Or the minah @mat salleh hu await them(LOL)?
*dun be offended guys~

I'm getting over that trash feeling right now.. there are few goals that i must achieve here at KMNS, namely:-

-CGPA 4.0 n above(rofl)
-Be the college representative in Chess
-MUET band 6 n above(lol)
-Decorating building's wall(graffiti)
-Kill at least 2 people
-Punch people's face randomly
-Hijack car@bus
-N many more
-Lastly, being expelled

Wutta??xD

TroubleShoot

2008-05-15T17:35:00.003+03:00

Ever facing problems regarding your PC slowness@annoyingness@n lots of other -ve 'ness'??
If u are still using the intel pentium 1st processor, BLAME yourself!! Unless your PC is brand new and all the specs are amazingly impressive, then something must be wrong. How to deal with it?

Here's how-
1)Press ctrl+shift+esc button simultaneously.(to open the task manager)
2)Go to performance.Observe the 'PC Usage'.If it reach 100% n above(so hbat la who got tis) , sahlah kene infect virus.
3)Open this link>> http://www.microsoft.com/technet/sysinternals/Security/ProcessExplorer.mspx

n download the process explorer software for free!

4)Run the software. This software will show all of the running process in ur PC. Try to look 4 the process which have the highest PC usage(normally 80% n above).
5)Highlight the process n KILL IT!!
6)By simply doing all of the steps above, u will replenish your PC speed.

xD

I'll be gone

2008-05-07T17:46:00.009+03:00

12th May, another beginning of a boring chapter in my life will be written. I'm off to KMNS(Kolej Matrikulasi Negeri Sembilan). Phuh..I bet it's going to be boring there. Actually, i'm eager to meet new kinds of creatures.[Al-hujuraat:13]. Unfortunately, the excitement wont last long..Later i have to study 24/7..Nahh..whining won't do a thing. It will only make things worse. Prophet S.A.W said "Utlubul I'lma walau kana fissiin" which means(err, dunno how to translate arabic-english) "tuntutlah ilmu walau ke negeri cina"(i doubt that this is the hadith shohih, probably the dhaif one).

So, studying@learning is a noble thing to do. No matter how boring it is, it's the only thing that will differ us from the not-so-clever people(err, uneducated). N lastly, [12:87].

*p/s: For those who have Yahoo messenger, try add quran.noble@yahoo.com. By just typing, eg. 12 : 87, it will show the meaning of the ayaat in english in an instant. Just try because it won't do u any harm.Tenkiu Fariz~!

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2008-05-07T11:07:00.006+03:00

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